[LuLu~]

random posts..

2009-05-07T10:55:00.003+08:00

it's been yet so long since i last updated here. don't even think there's people out there following my blog anyways.

am seriously slacking in office doin absolutely nothing! stupid printer kept jamming though. had to keep monitoring it. but other than that i'm purely enjoying the aircon and surfin the net! working life can be great! hoho. but i think at the rate the printer is jamming i'll never be able to get that 410 copies of convention brief out. argh heck. got a urge to go sing ktv. anyone interested?

went out with orange+derek+timothy last nite after work. had super yum ichiban boshi @ suntec! but should have gone for sushi teh in my opinion. hoho. but food was great nonetheless! and to our dear derek please stay in out sillypore! it's seriously not safe out there. after dinner we went liang seah for dessert! had gui ling gao but it's not bitter enough for my liking. then we had a long talk with tim in derek's car! it was............ hoho.

oh crap there's NIE band tomorrow and i've not sold a single ticket yet. any kind souls want to buy ticket from me?

i know i should really change my blog template but. procrastination seems to be engulfing me ever since my exams ended. ops.

alrite printer jammed again for the !@#)$(&$#% time. shall go get milk tea with pearl for myself now!

[LuLu~] need moisturizer for this dried-up-in-the-middle-of-nowhere office...

back...

2009-04-08T01:07:00.002+08:00

oh well... due to popular demand... i'm back bloggin again! yeah... horray... whatever...

I will write in proper english from now on. As blogging is the only medium for me to express my words and finally writing something. So here goes...

Life's been monotonous, to an extent when days just go by without me realising how quickly time had passed. How quickly my holiday will come. Still remembered those days when i prayed and prayed for the holidays to come but to no avail. But now, 2 more weeks and i'll be having a 3 months holiday. Honestly, i don't even know what is really going on in my courses. Perhaps i should attend lectures and tutorials more regularly?

How long has it been? More than 3 years! I loved every moment, every laughter, every tear, every conversation i had with you. It really makes me wonder what will become of us when the time comes. I don't want to think about it. But it's inevitable that it is drawing near. Lets try to make it work. Somehow.

Friday will be Easter and i'll be playing the french horn for the first time with the orchestra for the Easter Convention @ Expo. I just love the richness of the french horn. Gives me goosebumps whenever i hear a really good recital. To think of it, i get goosebumps almost all the time when i hear really good music. When my heart just melts with the music. I still love my trumpet though. And people should stop stereotyping trumpet as a purely loud and 'irritating' instrument. We trumpeters can make music that will melt your hearts too!

Alright, time to get some sleep. There is so much more to be studied!

[LuLu~] my neck hurts...

oh no...

2009-03-02T14:56:00.002+08:00

Been struck with a very bad flu and is hugging my tissue box while watching tv. And then i saw the news...

1 injured(professor-victim), 1 dead(final year student-attacker) in NTU stabbing

It's shocking how such incidents can happen here in Singapore and where i'm studying.

Oh well... i've really got nothin more to say..

new post!

2008-12-08T23:38:00.003+08:00

ops... long time didn't blog again... i think the template sucks... SUCKS!!!!!!!!! ragghhh!!

anyway... just came back from trip with the mister!! yeah!! so fun so fun! :) we went cameron highlands... yummy strawberriessssssssss...!!! den penang!! i ate like super alot of penang laksa and it's super yum!!! den finally went melaka!! chicken rice ballzzz....!! jonker walk!! oh wells... only thing is tat i got stung by this stupid wasp(is tat how u spell?) on the first day of the trip... and got a swollen pinky... :( sobs... shall upload pics next time when i get camera from the mister...

it's finally school holiday! :)

sometimes i just can't be bothered.... why...

[LuLu~] not makin much sense today....

another post....

2008-10-07T23:01:00.003+08:00

alright... LuLu~ must start to study real hard from now on... judgin by the mid-term result... passed... but doubt got any hope for 1st class honors if tis is wat i'll be gettin for final exam... anyway... but on e other hand... i'm goin to continue skippin lectures... wahaha... since i absorb absolutely zero percent of what e lecturer is talkin bout... tutorial is much better... oh.. and i've decided... i'm not goin to do any minor... shall just pick e simple courses for my UE that can get A... such as NIE band1/2/3... wahaha... and maybe beginner language... heard tat it's easy too... :) to pull up my GPA...

the mister is finally back after so many weeks... yippie... :) although he's goin australia to visit his family probably next month... hmm... should i tag along...?? dilema...

really busy this week... coz my tuition kids goin to hav their exam really soon... but tat also means no more income for a month or so after their exam! urgh... my shoppin list is gettin longer...

alrighty... shall go sleep... gd nite...

*pss*... sallie... i blogged!! haha... at ur request lor... honored rite... :)

[LuLu~] stop procrastinatin!!

e brighter side of life...

2008-09-28T15:41:00.003+08:00

okay... i think i shld spend some time to change tis template... hehe... gettin sick of this one already...

recess week passed by so quickly... *gasp*... i didn't really do much durin tis week!! ops... there's calculus and programmin midterm next sat...

damn... think i've got to stop spreein... hehe... or i'm not goin to be able to save up for tat somethin... :)

anyway... pic of my cute hamster...

cute rite!!!

anyway... lots of pple flyin off to study abroad... hai... gonna miss those frens... :'(

well... time to go study...

[LuLu~] spree~

busy busy busy...

2008-09-13T22:14:00.002+08:00

well... as u can obviously read from the title... i'm so freakin busy!!

still in e middle of my mid-term... one more week to go!! and finally recess week!! but after tat still got 2 more test... -_-' i'm actually studyin now!! can u believe it?! haha... not me... anyway... got lots goin on right now...

am collaboratin somethin with pretty sallie...!! shall keep it under covers for now... hehe... hope it'll work somehow... :) *bein extremely optimistic*

anyway... i need alcohol... ragh...!!! and get my mind off things...

hamsters are growin and gettin fatter by the minute... still cute though...

i think in all our lives we always gains some frens and lose some... u may say that it's quite impossible to lose frens unless u're not tryin hard enough... well... let me just say this to u... I'VE F***ING TRIED HARD ENOUGH AND YOU JUST DON'T GIVE A S*** BOUT WHAT I SAID!!! anyway... i guess some frens are just not worth tryin so hard to keep...

anyway... hope i'll update soon...

[LuLu~] standin alone in e rain...

back to school......

2008-08-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

oh drats... as u can see in the title... i'm back to school once again... tomolo or lets say 15hours later i'll be attendin my very first lecture @ ntu... it's bloody far... darn... not really lookin forward... althought i actually have frens there!!! annabelle, my primary 4,5,6 classmate is in e same course as me!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not alone!!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!! think our timetable is bout the same... so i'll not be e loner at lectures and tutorials... :)

went dbl O last nite with the mister and sallie and sam... yes... her name is officially sallie!!! maybe i shld go and change mine to LuLu~... still thinkin bout tat... back to the point... was really fun... hehe... though sallie shall not tell anyone wat happened while we were doin somethin... hehe... it's a secret... bout me... :) not even e mister shall know bout it... i'm not tellin... anyway... the nite didn't end tat well thanks to some annoyin bunch of pple.... nvm... cannot club so much since school start already... :( or maybe i'll club even more... relieve stress... so who wanna be my clubbin fren?? don take tis too seriously though...

all rite... shall go sleep now... little moody these days...

[LuLu~] i do.....

life's like tat...

2008-07-25T00:05:00.003+08:00

oh well... it's been months since i last updated here... honestly... i hav no idea wat i've been up to lately... is it worth it? i dono...

finally can take a break from band... really feelin so drained... i gotta relax!! was havin fever and sore throat tis week... sux... with concert and competition... argh...

school is startin in a few weeks time... er... wait!! it's the week after next!! argh... not really lookin forward... gettin too used to slackin and lazin around...

kinda disappointed with e way things are... were... goin to be... well... shall keep comments to myself...

shall go watch tv now... and enjoy e few days of nothingness while i can... bye!

[LuLu~] i don wan u away...

hello

2008-05-11T22:21:00.002+08:00

wow. it's been a really long long time since i've last blogged. everything is pretty much the same. just finished working at citibank. probably the most boring job ever.

went to eat steamboat at bugis with the mister and friends. and guess what!! we saw steven lim on our way near orchard!! he was like 50cm away from us riding his 'stylish' bike. and everytime we stopped at the red light, we was right there beside us. somehow i had the hardest time trying my very best not to burst out laughing! ops. mr lim please don't reply back on your blog and make me famous. hehe.

realised that my trumpet playing is really far from before. sight reading is getting tougher and tougher when i used to be able to play mahler straight off the score. simple melodies are becoming difficult to express. okay. i've lost touch. notes are just notes now. no expression. no feeling. no anything. just rhythm and notes. should make use of this time to find these emotions in music that i'm losing.

on a lighter note. discovered this nice mexican food stall at katong. near the munchy donut. it's a little 'coffee shop'-ish place that sells really good food that you don't expect from such places. although the price is something that you don't expect too. me and the mister spent $16 just on a simple mexican grilled fish fillet and a cheese melt. oh well. it's a nice surprise from such a subtle place.

VJCSB's concert is on 21May @ the esplanade! so grab your tickets quickly! i'll be playing with the alumni band as well as the main band for 'star wars'. did i mention that playing 'star wars' gives you a nasty headache for a whole day? shoot.

that's enough blogging for the day. until next time~

[LuLu~] happy mother's day!! to all the mommies!!

disappointments....

2008-01-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

let me just say that i'm disappointed with alot of stuffs... i'm disappointed with u... disappointed with me bein not e one... disappointed tat my efforts all these times/years hav not paid off... disappointed with how u all hav regarded me as...

maybe i should just give it up... and i'm seriously considerin to do so... but i know tat by givin up means i've wasted so much time and effort on this... what should i do???

perhaps it's time to re-evaluate my priorities... what means e most to me... what is worth my time and efforts... what i really want...

why is it that everytime i gave my all but end up not bein taken seriously?? am i not good enough for u all or how i feel just doesn't matter... hav u all ever thought of how i'd hav felt when u made those decisions tat might(if it hav not dawned upon u) change my life in a way??

never mind now... since i'm of no importance to u all... perhaps i'll just disappear one day...

i are back!!

2008-01-11T15:52:00.001+08:00

oh well... i'm back from shanghai.. e trip was really fun... despite e cold and sniffos and dirt and packed trains/buses/everywhere and motion sickness... hehe...

realised tat lots have changed and will be changed tis year... some of e guys hav enlisted and most of e gals are already workin... me?? hehe... enjoyin wat i'm doin rite now... :)

2007 was quite a fun and extremely fast year for most of us i guess... thanx to A Level of course... want to thank lots of people for makin a difference in my life and of course... for bein there for me and supportin me... and want to thank 06S55 for the wonderful 2 years of my JC life... :) wanna make use of e very long holiday to catch up with frens... lots of them...

until next time... will upload pictures of my trip.. :)

[LuLu~] another year has passed...

me are in shanghai!!!

2007-12-11T17:10:00.000+08:00

well.. me are in shanghai!!! finally got a chance to come online and blog and stuff... internet here sucks... think cannot go alot of websites... which is so darn frustratin!!! oh well... at least can msn... :)

been here for a week and half already... and all i wanna shout out is... so f__ing COLD!!! was havin flu a few days back... brrr... and tv here is really borin... -_-" oh... i finally pierced my ears...!! was so scared... so so so scared... hehe... call me scary cat... hehe... everyday eat so much... my tummy is bloated all e time... now are at my godbrother's house... so nice and big... hehe... goin to stay for a few days i think...

don really feel like bloggin much... will give a more interestin 'insight' next time... oh!! me went H&M!!! spent 600++RMB... means around 100 plus s'pore dollars... bought 2 tops 2 dress 1 hat 1 purse... hehe... :) paid by my cousin... me are feelin loved!! :) okay.. tat's all for now... mr neo will onli be back in s'pore on thursday... think by then den he'll read tis.... oh well...

[LuLu~] so cold.. waitin for ur call...

counting down...

2007-12-01T18:17:00.000+08:00

i guess life's all about lookin forward to somethin... if not it'll be so borin and mandane rite... e anticipation is probably e most excitin as compared to actually getting there...

2 more days left to flyin off... and i haven really packed!! oh no... time to sit down and draw up a shoppin list and to-do list... got 1 whole month to shop-till-i-drop and eat-till-i-puke... hehe... time to take some savings out and change to RMB... wahaha...

went out wif e gals yesterday... had yummy yummy dinner and did some shoppin around... really missed them... i guess it's these frens who'll stick with u through life's ups and downs tat are most precious... makes me wonder how it'll be perhaps 10 years down e road... but for now... everyone's pretty much e same... just more grown up...

today went for lunch wif sam, jingming and rebecca... two of whom i've grown up with and one who'll be growin up with us... :) she's still young... constantly remindin us how 'old' we are already...

bought a book few days back and wanted to read it while in shanghai... but sadly i can't stop once i started readin it... and have already finished readin e book!!! gotta go buy another one tomorrow... any recommendation for good reads??

well... there's not enough time left to catch up with everyone... so those of u who i've not caught up with... we'll meet up when i get back k... :) tat reminds me... i've got to buy lots of presents for so many pple.... hmm... pocket will burn a big hole... oh wells...

[LuLu~] lost without u...

start of something new...

2007-11-30T12:40:00.000+08:00

oh well.. finally back to bloggin once again.. haha... A level is finally over!! :) and i guess its now time to enjoy wat little time i hav.. before mum nags at me to find a job... hehe...

i've decided!! shall get both driving and riding liscence... den see if parents will get me a car... if not vespa it shall be!!! hehe... will burn a big gigantic hole in mr neo's pocket then... wahaha... will be leaving for Shanghai on monday... those of u out there who wants a present from me better msg me quick!! or you can always e-mail me... :)

post A level was fun!!! guess e best part is finally being able to catch up with old frens... :) and of course went pubbin with the 'happenin' ones from class... u know who i'm talkin bout.. :) went out with sisi and her babies!! they're like e cutest babies i've ever seen!! probably due to both not throwin tantrums and cryin all e time... hehe... muz get mr neo-the chauffer to drive us out more often... hehe... will upload pictures of the cuties when miss sallie decides to finally send me those pictures...

mr neo is now in India...!!! wahaha... poor thing... think he's eatin curry all day long... but we wont be spendin the holidays together... i'll onli be back from shanghai on 2jan next year!! will be so fat lah...

all rite... tat's all for today i guess... will be havin dinner with e best frens... :) u know who u are!!

[LuLu~] happie anni...

i'm back!!!

2007-01-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!! finally... after trillion... of years... wahahha...

school is as borin as ever... but everyone's muggin hard... so am i... i think.... :p anyway... my timetable seemed pretty nice... onli one super duper ultra long monday... but e rest are rather early dismissal... hehe... okay... major events happenin tis year:

1) common test 1 in march
2) SYF in may
3) australia trip in june
4) common test 2 in june too!!!! (help!)
5) prelim in sept??
6) GCE A'LEVEL EXAMINATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (help X100000)

alrite... i shall go and sleep... e tv in e room spoil le... but i don wan go outside and watch... no aircon... hehe... oh... time to change my template... something's wrong wif it...

oh... and i wan a new bag...!!! e old one seemed a bit small to put my files inside... hehe... time for bed little boys and gers!!!

[LuLu~] twinkle twinkle little....... i wan a puppy darlin....

your song

2006-11-27T17:20:00.000+08:00

holiday.... :)

2006-11-17T15:37:00.000+08:00

tis week is really e start of holidays.... previously was PW stuff...

super busy tis week lah... haha... was fun... :) had chalet and saw so many pple!!! haha... i miss everyone... :) i like every other day oso go pasir ris lah... think darlin super sian ridin there to fetch me liao... haha... den saturday gotta go pasir ris again... twice somemore... mornin me and darlin gotta go a church there and play for someone's weddin... den after tat he gotta go sembawang cc to play for some old folks... haha... den at nite hav to go back to pasir ris to go for his fren's BBQ!! haha... tis week mostly spent at pasir ris... haha...

i think i really like lambchop...!!! haha... bahbah... so nice.... haha.... oh... and other than pasir ris... e seletar dam thingy was another place we went e most in tis week... haha... not sian meh??

me is growin fat... argh... holiday den eat and eat and eat and no exercise... :( go bladdin!!!!!!

okay... i don feel like bloggin anymore... i'm lazy... but u're lazier!!! haha..

[LuLu~] big fat lazy bum!!!

whee!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

oh yes..!!! promo is finally over... :):):):)... ok... i noe tis kinda late to display my happiness here... hehe... hav been out ever since math paper... no time to even come online..!! haha... :)

went out wif e class after math paper... haha... it was fun!!! we call had carl's junior for lunch... haha... and to my horror... jiaying managed to finish a whole double-sized burger combo all by herself!!!! OHMYGOOSENESS...!!! haha... as in to e very last bite of the burger and fries and drinks.... wahhh...!!! haha... den e guys left for their jersey thingy... left eric and jianming to hang around... we ended up watchin u.me.and dupree... haha... was hilarious...!!! i shall not mention why... :)

went out wif jasmine, jaslyn, isa and jasmine on friday... haha... ate at e hongkong cafe at cine... it was rather yummy!!! den darlin joined us and we all walked to far east and had chippy...!! haha... all e unhealthy food... i really missed goin out wif all of them... :) went to darlin's auntie house for dinner... think his aunties were really nice... cute in a way... :)and my stomach almost exploded from all e food lah... coz they kept askin us to eat more eat more eat more... haha... did i tell u there's a doggie and a rabbit tat simply ignore me and darlin whenever we tried to play wif them... haha... quite retarded... hope my pets next time will not be liddat... den after tat went to meet up wif darlin's frens... and guess who i saw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! come ask me urself... haha...

had BAND on sat mornin... overslept... didn't plan to go... e haze was really really super duper ultra bad lor.... u can juz smell e burnt chaotah air..!! haha... but still... i went... played many pieces... and think i've not been playin for too long.... abit cannot make it le... haha.. nvm... will prac hard from now on... after band darlin picked me up from school... went parkway and bought lots of unhealthy food again!!!!! i'm seriously growin really fat from all e sinful stuffs down my stomach... den we went home to chill... :) thanx to e lousy disgustin haze... but we had fun... :) hehe...

todae had church... think everyone's havin sore throat from e haze lor.... indonesian farmers please stop e burnin and tryin to kill all of us here.... sally u better be studyin hard...!!! no more bladdin and hangin out...!!! haha... and went back to SWO for rehearsal... wah... e pieces super difficult... i really really muz prac hard tis time round....

oh oh... did i tell u SWO is goin sydney next june??!!! and we're gonna play in e Sydney Opera House..!!!!!! i muz go man... will make sure my parents let me go...

all tat's left for tis year is PW... but no sweat... my group's doin fine i think... :)

[LuLu~] chocolate...!!!

Promos!!!

2006-10-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

finally it's here!!! tadah... e PROMOS!!!!! hmm... wonderin why i'm here happily bloggin while e rest of e world is probably bein buried under piles and piles of books and notes...??!!! coz i'm juz so SICK of MUGGIN!!!!! haha... yes i am... anyway... wat can be done is already done... wat can't be done is too late to be done... get wat i mean?? nvm... let's all juz pray tat LuLu~ will be able to pass her promos... :)

goin to attend a weddin later... haha... can u believe it..?!! haha... yes i'm tis heck care bout promos already... :)

i'm so lookin forward to thursday...!! e last paper... and i'll be free...!!! haha.... muz pamper myself wif shoppin!!! haha... already plannin to buy heels from C&K... hehe... :) since my fantastic PW group is not havin a big problem wif our WR... i don think i'll hav any more worries till next year...!! haha... yeepee...!!!!

oh yes... and my darlin is back from aussie!!!! finally... haha... :) went to airport to fetch him last nite... :) and not-surprisingly... he got fatter..!!!!!!!! haha.... looked at all e pics... i so wanna go there for holiday!!! argh... hopefully will get to go next year wif SWO... :)

tat's all now... shall go think of wat to wear for e weddin later.... :)

[LuLu~] Jacob's Creek.......

open house!!!

2006-09-23T15:36:00.000+08:00

haha... found these on the cosiety website.. think it's super funny... :) so all potential victorians please come down for our open house!!! :)

i muz go back to mug now... bye bye... hello physics.....

[LuLu~] i wan u back.............

time for a change...!!!

2006-09-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

i think it's time for me to change my template... hmm... e pink's gettin more and more blindin... haha... :p shall do tat soon... when i'm too bored muggin...

thursday's goin to be a busy busy day...!!! go school in e mornin... den muz go for a birthdae party.... so excitin!!! :) and den muz rush down to airport to send darlin off.... muz hurry write a shoppin list for him... hehe... :)

oo...!! and todae's my mama's birthdae!!! :) so happie birthdae mama...!!!

finally conquered AP, GP and summation!!! hehe... goodbye maths and hello chemistry... argh..... tat's not very motivatin... :(

anyone wanna join me for a holiday cum shoppin spree on 1-3december @ KL?? haha...

[LuLu~] i wanna go wif u!!!!

EoM!!!!!

2006-09-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i've not finished my EoM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so so so so dead... haha... but still got time to blog here... hehe.... :) but nvm... i muz muz muz finish it by tomolo...!!!!!!!! or dear mr kwek will surely throw hard object at me on monday... haha....

had chem spa todae... and i totally screwed up!!! argh... :( lemme juz tell u tat e stupid boilin tube will crack super easily if u heat it long enough... i didn't even heat for like 5 min lah!!!! argh... and i had to redo twice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... but at least i managed to finish it...

i muz study for promos....!!! study study study.............!!! mug mug mug..........!!!!! :( chemistry does not wan to be my best fren... :( so does econs.... haiz.....

okie... tat's all now... and thank u so much xinyi for e umbrella!!! hehe... :)

[LuLu~] baby....... :)

2006-09-05T21:03:00.000+08:00

haha... i'm back bloggin... :) juz remembered somethin really important... haiz... but nvm... she doesn't bother anyway... so no point gettin angry wif myself...

anyway... watched 'monster house' and 'the devil wears prada'... hehe... quite nice... but e former one was a little scary... haha... think i'll be goin darlin aunt's house every sat wif him to hav dinner... :) yummy... but i'm certainly gettin ffffffffatter.... :(

okay... i've been a good ger so far... i've done studyin for maths... except 3 really hard chapter which i'm goin to get help wif... haha... and now i shall move on to e 'killer'... chemistry..!!! argh...!!! aren't u proud of me?? :) :) :)

oh....!!! i watched e air-show @ e air force open house last sat... was quite fun... haha... e funniest part was when those army boys at e show pretended to die... e little boy sittin behind us said 'mommy... why are they pretendin to be dead??' haha... so funny okay?!!! haha... saw timon and his family... he's dad still e same... :)

family tree was pretty fun... oh.. and if u wan see mr kwek takin tat ride tat throws u around... go to e cosiety homepage and at e extreme right of e pic... there's our dear mr kwek!! haha... e performance wif e band at e PT was rather okay... think most pple were tired from e mornin rehearsal.. so didn't play as well... but nvm... it was good i think... at least i managed to play those really impt parts... haha... but everythin at e carnival was super expensive lah...!!! argh... but still... sat was really fun... :)

do u ever feel so frustrated when u tried so hard but no one else bothers... tat u juz wanna give up...

i am feelin sick..... nose bleed juz now... no more fried food for me...!!!

[LuLu~] nachos and cheese......!!!

1 week left...

2006-08-27T11:06:00.000+08:00

alrite... think it's been a long long long long time i last blogged... hehe... so here goes...

there's one more week left of school... or rather 3 more days.. haha... since thursday and friday will be teacher's day celebration/holiday!!! whee..!!! i can't wait for tat pathetic one week of holiday man..!!! but gotta mug hard for promos... if not i'll be so dead... haha... oh yeah... goin KL wif darlin on e last 3 days of e holiday...!! so don miss me pple... hehe... :)

i officially took leave from SWO!!! haha... so no more SWO till e end of promos...!!! so there's good news and bad news... good news is tat i'll be alot more free on sunday to mug mug mug hard for promos and get home early and be a good ger on sunday... e bad news is tat e pieces for e concert on 22dec are damn darn hard...!!! i need to work on those pieces...!! haiz... nvm... hopefully i'll be able to catch up when i get back... :)

i'm growin fffffffffffffat... argh... eat and eat and eat... nvm... went to darlin's auntie's house to eat dinner last nite... i like tat place... :)

everybody shld go watch princess hour...!!! it's rather nice... haha...

okay... i'm bored of bloggin now... good bye pple... until next time...!!!

[LuLu~] doggie..!!!

wahaha....

2006-08-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

whee!!! tis is me and elmo..!! hehe... darlin's mistress....

anyway... it's almost national day... and oh yeah!! we're goin to get a super duper ultra long holiday...!! okay.. LuLu~ has decided to study hard for promos... so no goin out everyday durin tat break...!!! muz study... haha... i think... hmm...

next week got pw interview...! so excitin..!! haha... maybe i'll post it up next time... hmm... or maybe not...

i think my class guys are like e funniest bunch of crazy pple around lah... i almost died laughin in school... haha...

hehe... bought somethin i really like..!! darlin will like too... :) hehe... but i'm not tellin u...!!

[LuLu~] pink and stripes......

i'll miss u...

2006-07-28T20:58:00.000+08:00

darlin's goin on trip... gonna miss u... wish u'll come back safely... :)

[LuLu~] 10 times a month...!! at least...!!!!!!!

and i love u so.......

2006-07-27T23:15:00.000+08:00

hehe... todae is a really really really really super duper ultra good day for me!!! hehe... but i shall not share it wif u here!!! :)

all i wanna say is tat i'm really touched by wat u did for me... :) it doesn't matter if u can't play or sing well... it's perfect to me... :) and i really like these little surprises from u... :) and i can't stop grinnin from ear to ear now... :) and i love u so... :)

oh yes... everybody go and watch 'the lake house'...!! it's super nice... touchin... lovin... hmm... hehe... it's juz really nice... not suitable for e cold-hearted though... :)

tat's all folks... think tis entry will be long enough to push e youtube down so tat u can see my tagboard properly... hehe... byebye!!!

[LuLu~] how i love to love u... :)

2006-07-20T12:37:00.000+08:00

why does it always seem like i'm e onli one tryin??

but honestly... i'm tired...

don make me give up pls...

headache.... argh...

2006-07-18T15:15:00.000+08:00

well... i'm finally back bloggin...

been havin bad bad headache for 3 days already... argh... make it go away please...

oh yes... SSW got Gold...!! and they're e top band for 2nd division... congrats to everyone...!!!

i'm in no mood to blog... don ask me why...

bye bye...

[LuLu~] i wish u could love me more...

insecure

2006-07-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

in.se.cure/adj.
1. Not sure or certain; doubtful: unemployed and facing an insecure future.
2. Inadequately guarded or protected; unsafe: A shortage of military police made the air base insecure.
3. Not firm or fixed; unsteady: an insecure foothold.
4. a Lacking stability; troubled: an insecure relationship.
b Lacking self-confidence; plagued by anxiety: had always felt insecure at parties.

potato salad??

2006-07-03T14:33:00.000+08:00

hehe.. i'm back..!! from shitty mid-year which i'm postively sure i'm gonna fail miserably... bleah... went for squash trainin in e mornin... loads of things came to mind... hmm... nvm... i shall make potato salad...!! hehe... hope they're yummy...

frens come and go... but maybe there's a few who'll wanna stay and stand by u... are u one of those few??

school's officially gonna start tomolo... i die oso wan watch 'superman' todae..!! argh...

whoever can play 'more than words' on e guitar pls pls pls pls teach me...!!! hehe... i'm addicted...

i hav alot of random thoughts now... hehe... so pls don mind me...

oh yes...!! thank u sally and samuel for e 'sexy' present... hehe... it's really nice.... :) and sam if u're readin tis... we wan go ur house play after sally finishes her mid-years...!! we wan we wan we wan!!! haha... and u muz cook for us... hehe... yum yum....

hmm... i should stop thinkin bout food all e time... and i sadly i've juz found out tat i did not lose fffffffats... but think i've gained some... argh!!!!! darlin all ur fault!!! hmpt...

okay... i shall go darlin's house... hehe...

[LuLu~] i wan ur love!!!

More than words...!! I love tis song!!!

2006-06-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

22june... bestest day i've had...

2006-06-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

OooOOoooOOoooo.... finally i'm back bloggin.. haha.... firstly... i muz thank all of those who wished me happie birthdae in one way or another... :) and oso those who forgot all about tat sacred day i still muz thank u all for bein part of my 19-years life... haha... i love my frens and darlin!!

22june thursday....
tat was really e bestest day i've had for a long long long long............ time... haha... really.... but e biggest regret was tat i did not take a single photo!!!!!!!! argh.... slap myself slap myself... argh.... nvm... had lunch cum shoppin time wif my dear jasmine jaslyn and isabella...!! fantastic four?? haha... ate at billy bombers... wahh... i pigged out lor... haha... nvm... fats are my best frens now... they don wanna leave me... den shoppin shoppin shoppin... and i've decided tat i'll go shop NO MATTER WAT once mid-yr is over... :) and oh yes... thanx to u fantastic gurls for e cookie monster...!! haha... it'll stay wif me on my bed every nite... haha...

den in e me darlin samuel sally had wonderful fantastic sinful dinner at brewerts... haha... beer..!! though i didn't drink much... and samuel was semi-drunk... admit sam!! hehe... but i like it there... too bad darlin had to leave early to work... at nite.. poor thing... nvm...

anyway... so i've spent tis birthdae wif e pple i love e most most... :) and of course my parents lah.. haha... and i'm glad tat i hav these pple wif me... :) tat's more than enough... :)

after my birthdae...
i had band prac at ssw for 2 consecutive days already... haha... it's quite fun there... :) crazy bunch of pple... haha... 15july is e competition... tat's really soon...!! ah..!! seems like i'll be missin alot of VJ band... haha... competition more important... haha....

mid-yr is somethin tat LuLu~ had long forsaken... haha... think i'll be droppin one subject to H1.. hehe... probably econs... haha... anyway... i have more important things on my mind rite now to bother bout tis f****** mid-yr tat e whole world is so tense bout...

i shld go sleep soon... so fast tomolo e last day of e june hol le... haiz... no more stay-over... no more alcohol(i think).... argh...

okay... gd nite everyone..!! shall blog more tomolo.. i think... :)

[LuLu~] treasure e pple u love....

happie birthdae to me!!!

2006-06-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

happie birthdae to me

happie birthdae to LuLu~

happie birthdae to me...!!!!

okay... tat was rubbish... haha... why am i still bloggin...?? i hav no life... wahaha...

19 years ago... a tiny super underweight baby LuLu~ was born... wahaha... her parents named her as 'dew'... as they tot she looked so pure... juz like e mornin dew... 19 years hav passed... and she's now almost all grown up... had her heart broken... had cried a river... had done things that she'll regret forever... had so many frens who juz drifted away... had hurt herself on purpose... had hurt others on purpose... had experienced so much that she could no longer be e same ever again... but tat's wat made her to be wat she is now... after 19 years...

how time flies... hmm... wonder wat i'll be like in another 19 years time...

and darlin... here's my birthdae wish... tat u'll not sell elmo away...

[LuLu~] happie birthdae to me.....

i'm a cookie monster!!! hehe...

2006-06-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.

You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.

You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking

How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

1 more day!

2006-06-21T17:44:00.000+08:00

1 more day 1 more day 1 more day to wat?! to those whom i seemed so insignificant to... here's a reminder... tomolo's LuLu~'s birthdae... but i don seem to be tat excited... perhaps age got e better of me...?! hmm... wahaha... nvm... but i'm sure tis will be e best birthdae i hav... since i'll be spendin it wif e pple i love e most.... :) i sure hope tomolo will turn out great... so far i've gotten US$100 from my godmama... and pretty wallet plus wat's inside from darlin for my birthdae... but pls do not gimme any present... DO NOT GIVE ANY PRESENT!! i mean it...

juz got back from dunman... listened to e sec1s and i hav nothin to say... attitude... wahaha... and i played wif e main band for a while... played Mission Impossible... Do Enka Express(wif sunlu as e soloist... faints... again... i'll never forgive him for wat he did to me..!!)... thunder and lightning... and finally MERCURY!!! wahaha... was fun... but think they hav much to work... miss playin in DHSSB... i miss my squad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha....

next week's mid year... and congrats to LuLu~ she's gonna fail... wahaha... i think i really can't be bothered liao... hmm... darlin pls don scold me... :)

i'm sorrie i was so pms on sundae... i'm sorrie i was so paranoid bout her... i'm sorrie to make u feel bad when u didn't do anythin wrong... i'm sorrie... i don wan u to change anythin... i don wan u to behave differently juz becoz of wat i said... i shld hav more faith... i shld trust more... ...

[LuLu~] we've got a long way to go....

quiz.. i'm bored..

2006-06-20T12:07:00.000+08:00

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

Your Birthdate: June 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.
You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.
People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.
Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know.

Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true

Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid

Your power color: Silver

Your power symbol: Square

Your power month: April

i'm finally bloggin...

2006-06-20T10:22:00.000+08:00

alrite... i'm finally bloggin again... been super busy...? hmm...

18june sunday
it didn't start off great... but now come to think of it... why am i behavin liddat?! haiz... sorrie samuel and jingming.... choir sang at youth hour... but look at them... i got nothin to say... after tat met darlin and we went PS to shop...!! hehe... somethin happened and i had to buy IT... haha... so happie so happie... darlin u like IT hor?! haha... nvm... den walk walk around for a while... wah.. darlin played e new x-box game... super nice lor... i wan i wan i wan...!! haha... NO.. cannot... nvm.... den we went carrefour to buy super duper ultra yummy food for e chalet's bbq... it was money well spent... coz e food tastes really good... haha... took cab to e chalet... coz darlin wan to drink...!! so no ridin for him.. haha...

SWO/SSW chalet was fun... jocelyn and LuLu~ taught gladys and vanessa how to play bridge... think she almost exploded tryin to explain.. haha.. super funny... nvm... i need my bridge sessions wif my classmates @ e tree house soon.. haha... den finally bbq started...!! whoohhooo..!! i ate alot alot alot alot lah... super pig lor.. haha.. den mr ng and andrew came wif loads of alcohol!!! haha... i drank and drank... hehe.... super funny... thomas was drunk!! haha... den we kept makin fun of him... haha... he's super funny... had gossip session in e room... haha... can't stand it lor.. i'm so aunty... so gossipy.. haha... is there such a word...? hmm... haha... nvm... overall... chalet was fun.... in e end i didn't stay over... went home wif darlin... too bad he wasn't drunk.. haha...

17june saturday
concert day...!! all e photos i put up already... click here..!!!!

mahler was quite well played... although i did not contribute much... haha... was super tired after e whole concert lah... i aspire to play e french horn... haha... nvm... after concert went back cc to unload all e stuffs... hehe... bus ride back was fun... :) den we went AMK to hav supper... wahaha... went to mac at first... den got like thousands of pple watchin soccer there lor... haha.. den went to some coffee shop... nice yummy food... :)

tis concert meant alot to me... but i hav my regrets and heartaches.... it's all over... no one can turn back time to make it better for me... irregardless... i'll keep these memories wif me... :)

20june tuesday
i must study todae... mid year's next week... but i'm prepared to fail anyway... argh.. nvm... i don feel like studyin at all...

suddenly i've got so much to tell u...

i treasure my frens... but do they?

don feel like celebratin my birthdae at all... it's juz another day of my life....

[LuLu~] and i love u so....

my life is great...!!! not....

2006-06-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

my life is great... i hav food to eat everydae.. i hav clothes to wear all e time... almost all the time... i hav frens around me... though i'm juz so insignificant to them... i hav parents who provides for my material needs... but nothin more than tat i think... i hav a cute darlin who's good to me... but unsecured me... i am in a good school... wonder how i got here in the first place... i am decent lookin.... despite e pimple out-breaks and e ffffffat and uuuugly me.... ........ ....... ........ ........... ..............

but why am i feelin tis way all the time?!

[LuLu~] be optimistic.........

2006-06-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

i think tat life shld be much more than juz scorin well for exams and doin well in ur studies.....

why do i feel depressed all e time...?

[LuLu~] useless me.....

2006-06-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

i don like e me now... i'm gettin mean... i'm gettin from bad to worse... haiz... nvm... feelin ffffffffffffat and uuuuuuuuuuuuuuugly now....

it's really hard to hold on tight to u pple anymore... i tried hard... but i'm really tired... tired of tryin to hold on to all of u anymore... like i've said... insignificant me... no one will ever take me seriously... treat me like i meant somethin to u... haiz... i am feelin so distant from u all... why is it tat whenever i put my heart and soul into somethin... it juz comes back breakin my heart... disappointin me...

i wonder wat if i was never there... wat if..........

so much goin on in my mind rite now...

i ought to be studyin...

i'm sleepin on e floor tonite.. haiz...

[LuLu~] depression..............

edited:

juz great... look at my wishlist... onli one item is finally mine... great...!! juz great!!! and to think tat i could buy them while everywhere's on sale now.. haiz...

please do NOT buy me anythin for my birthdae...

and mid-years in less than 2 weeks time... wat hav i done so far..?? NOTHING!!!!!!! haiz.. useless stupid lazy me....

the higher the expectation the greater the disappointment.... how true...

go sleep now... still got band tomolo morning....

[LuLu~] do i mean anythin....?

2006-06-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder if u ever think of me...

tis e second week of hol... and i've not touched anythin academic related... wahaha... i'm so dead... and parts of my lecture notes are still empty... hmm... so some of u will get my call soon to borrow notes to copy... haha... i'm so sorrie...

i juz wanna please u....

feelin super duper ultra ffffffffffffffffat... gonna look like s*** tomolo on sally sis's weddin.... bleah... no more eat-like-a-pig diet for me..!!!

sometimes i wonder if u're for real....

oh yes... we cleaned e band room todae... u juz can't imagine e amount of rubbish we threw out... and e amount of dust flyin everywhere... haha... it was fun... but dirty...

i juz wanna love u...

i'm tired... shall go sleep soon... got band prac and weddin to attend tomolo...

[LuLu~] am i good enough??

ATTENTION!

2006-06-06T13:17:00.000+08:00

everyone needs attention... i'm no exception... all i needed was juz tat little attention tat i deserve... am i askin too much...? i do need to feel cared for and loved once in a while... but why is it tat i'm always feelin insignificant...?! feelin like a nobody... haiz.. it seems that i'm not important at all... i dont mean anythin...

anyway... last weekend was great...

[LuLu~] love me?

edited:
now's 11.09pm... i'm feelin really pissed... mixed feelings...

i need affection... i need freedom... i need love... i need care and concern... i need attention... i need confirmation...

why is it tat when i gave my all... i got back nothin... juz perfunctory acts...

[LuLu~] i'm such disappointment....

name issue.....

2006-06-01T10:29:00.000+08:00

first of all... for those who noe me well... don bother readin tis.. haha... but for those who think tat u don really noe me very well.... LISTEN UP!!

LuLu~ is my nick... wat pple would choose to call me if they decided tat chenlu doesn't sound tat good.. haha... wateva lah... i like pple callin me LuLu~.... chenlu's fine as well... but please do not be deluded tat my surname is chen...!!! it is not....!!!!! do u realise tat chenlu is spelt together...?? did it ever occur to u how surname and given name can be written together?? hmm.... so let me solve e mystery.... my surname is Qian.... direct translation means money.. yes yes yes... $$$.... haha... so tis gives u Qian ChenLu.... my full name... haha.... so i'm not miss chen... i'm miss qian!! and lu does not means road...!!! chenlu stands for mornin dew...!! pure and beautiful...!! haha... juz like me.... hehe... :p

okay... tat's all for now... i shall go shoppin soon... :)

[LuLu~] one more day...!!

i love u..!!

2006-05-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

first of all... i wish i can be e cure to all illness... so tat u'll be well again... so tat u won't be sayin all those nonsense bout urself... :)

aha... let me list down my shoppin list here... essential goods kiez... so here goes...

ESSENTIAL things to get for myself [budget]:
1) spectacles [$100]
2) files (for school and swo) [$10]
3) runnin shoes [$100]
4) swimsuit [$50]
5) jacket [$100]

oh my goodness... essential goods alone will cost me more than $300!!!!!! ROAR...!! wat bout all my luxury goods??!!!!!!!!!!! haiz... poor LuLu~.... money pls pls pls drop from the sky!!!

anyway... i can't wait for friday... :) cant wait cant wait cant wait....! hehe..

i muz force myself to go swim tomolo... no matter wat...!! haha... oh yes... did i mention tat i've lost 1.5kg already... :) haha... so happie so happie so happie... yeah!!

go shoppin tomolo...!! :) get my nokia6280!!! hehe... i hope...

[LuLu~] thanx for bein so patient wif me... :)

get well soon....

2006-05-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

darlin's sick... and my headache's oso gettin worse.. pls stop me if u see me pop another panadol extra... haiz... he looked like he's dyin... *touch wood*.... and my heart aches... managed to spend e whole of todae and yesterdae takin care of him... :) oh yeah... all tat i can say is he's super stubborn..!! argh... tomolo his family's flyin off at nite...wish he's fine... hmm... helped out alittle at his house todae... i do not wish to say anythin bout tat... met his dad... think he expects alot from me... haiz... nvm... i'll not say anythin here..

aniwae... i was super happie when i opened my mail-box todae...!!! mr kwek liked out GPP!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG!!
'Hi,your GPP is very well written and well thought out. Please go ahead and execute your plan. It may turn into a real-life meaningful project. Good work!'
wahahah...!!! i'm so happie and relieved and glad...!! our group turned out to be fantastic...!! oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah... but poor kailee... haiz... i can onli pray hard for her... hope she's doin fine...

anyway... tomolo's VJCSB's investiture... sadly i hav somethin super important on... haiz... will miss e seniors....

Things to do durin e june holidays:
1) mug hard for mid-year
2) swo concert on 17 june
3) pub'in wif sally and samuel on 11june
4) train hard for squash
5) lots of stay-over
6) complete surveys and stuffs for PW
7) my birthdae on 22june
8) sally's birthdae cum her sis's weddin on 10june
9) great singapore sale!!!!!!!!
10) send darlin's family off tomolo nite
11) lose at least 3kg by e end of e hol
12) prac my trumpet for SSW's july competition

argh... do i hav enough time...? hmm... nvm... i'll hav to find time no matter wat...

[LuLu~] wish u're feelin better.....

V.I.C.T.O.R.I.A.!

2006-05-26T11:36:00.000+08:00

V.I.C.T.O.R.I.A.!!!

We are e CHAMPIONS!!!!

whoohoo!!! haha... after my dear jaslyn's soccer gers emerged CHAMPION... our soccer guys are too e CHAMPIONS...!! haha.. it was emotional rollercoaster ride all e way.... i'm glad we won... :) and tis is wat makes VJC different from all other JC....

next year i muz go support jaslyn no matter wat... irregardless of wat i hav.... onli if i'm dead will i not turn up for her match... so if next year u do not see me at e soccer ger's finals... either i'm e worst fren on earth or i'm dead... haha....

anyway... thanx to all the sports teams... we've got a full day off...!! haha... but thanx to band... i've gotta go back school and get ready for tonite's MAJESTIA!!!!

'xxx: so r u all goin out after tis?
LuLu~: not me...
xxx: why?!
LuLu~: i've got MAJESTIA tonite....
xxx: huh?! so sad lah... '

'xxx: so how's life??
LuLu~: life?....... i hav no life.....'

pple... look forward to tonite's MAJESTIA....!

i miss my darlin...

[LuLu~] u spice up my life.... my almost non-existent life....

deep in thoughts...

2006-05-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

yes.. u're rite.. it's juz a tiny little small insignificant part of my life... u're much more than tat... so i shan't let it affect me at all.... i'm a big fat liar... haiz... it is affectin me... in a way or another... but i'll try to get over it... i hate myself for makin u get worried over me... and i hate to let u hear me cry... haiz...

todae's e ultimate bridge day!!!! wahaha... first was bridge in tree house since mr koh not around for math tutorial... haha... den it was bridge again in LT5 durin chem lecture... haha... and finally it was yet more bridge in e tree house durin econ lecture... haha... obviously we didn't go econ lec.. haha.. nvm... i bought 2 GV movie voucher from eeliak for $7 each... haha... tat was random... i shall compile my shoppin list to prepare myself for e GSS!!!!!! haha... but i'm runnin low on my GSS funds....!!! any kind soul wanna sponsor me...?? hehe...

i'm 2quartermaster...

oh yes... CONGRATS JASLYN!!!!!!! yeah.... my dear jaslyn's soccer team won!!!!! WON WON WON!!!! they're e CHAMPIONS!!!!!!!! haha... so proud of her!!!!!!!!! wish i was there to support her.... but due to certain reason i couldnt be there... and i'm regrettin every single second of not bein there!!!!! roar...!!!

f*** off........!!!!!

i'm feelin really vulgar now... nvm...

diego shld go attend english oral lessons... haha... to correct his weird pronounciation.. haha... no offence...!! but it's super funny... haha...

world cup's comin and my class guys are all turnin into soccer fanatics.... it's super funny.. haha....

LuLu~ shall go exercise more often.. run more...!! to train up for squash...!!

tis blog is too random... sorrie pple...

i can't wait for tis week to end... end to my misery....

to stay or not to stay?? dilema....

i expect at least an apology...

[LuLu~] at least i've still got u.......

haiz....!!

2006-05-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

i'm sorrie..!! sorrie sorrie sorrie... i'm a coward... yes.. i am..! ah....!!!!! but i promise u i'll tell him within this few days.... i promise i promise i promise...!!! sorrie for bein such a disappointment.... haiz.... wake up LuLu~!!! and face e reality!!!! roar!!!!!

gpp's due tomolo and my dear diego still hav not sent me e gpp....!! ah...

i shall stay up till 12 and wait for diego to send me e gpp... anythin later than tat and i'm off to bed!!!

i need specs..!!!!

like ur jacket darlin?? :)

i can't wait for next week... but it's gonna be a super duper ultra busy week now... hav band everyday....!!! (if they decided to hav prac on thursday.. which is like 99% will hav...)... haha... i'm hardcore band'it!!!!!! haha... even sat and sunday after majestia i'll still hav SWO and SSW lor... wahahaha.... nvm... i need as much prac as i can.... my playin's gettin worse i think.. haiz....

stupid mosquito kept kissin me!!!! go away go away go away!!!! i'm not sweet...!!!!

[LuLu~] i've failed u yet again........................

disappointment....

2006-05-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

i'm really disappointed.... wif myself... wif u... wif everything... wif wateva tat's happenin rite now... i juz can't help it... i'm disappointed wif myself tat i can't show my true self to e rest of e world... hidin behind a mask all e time... i'm always pretendin... pretendin to be happie.. pretendin everythin's fine... pretendin...... haiz...

had chem spa yesterdae... it went well i think... i hope... at least i got e colour change rite and e result rite too...

i'm not in e mood to blog now... bye for now... wait till i'm in a better mood....

[LuLu~] top of ur priority list........?

the da vinci code...

2006-05-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

since today is e release of e much-anticipated movie - the da vinci code.... here are my thoughts bout tis whole da vinci code hoo-haa......

firstly, i hav to admit tat 'facts' in tis story are very very very very very super duper ultra unreliable... bleah... he got alot of e facts wrong.. wrong wrong wrong..!! but i shall not elaborate here... u smart pple readin tis blog can go find out urself bout e truth behind those 'facts'... contradictin!!!

but... aside from e wrong facts and stuff.. e story is very good!!! it's intriguin!!! all e puzzles and mysteries to be solved... fascinatin!!

i think tat we as christians shld hav our faith strong when readin tis book... yes... it somehow seemed convincin.. but don let one man's words shatter ur faith in God..!! tis book is under e fiction category!! not history!!!! so please juz read it for entertainment... afterall it is very well-written despite e whole twisted truth... some people condemn the da vinci code... claimin it is e work of satan... i personnally don feel tis way... it is afterall just a story... but it is u who choose whether to believe it or not to... so if ur faith is strong... wat can a mere book do to take u away from God??!!!! u will face many other obstacles tat will make u question God... but is ur faith strong enough???? people are protestin against tis book.... but look at it in another way.... now tat it had caught e attention from all over the world... not just christians.. but also non-christians are more eager to find out e truth behind wat e book claimed to be true.... my faith has grown exponentially ever since i started readin and learnin about the true history behind Jesus.... who would even tok bother bout the dead sea scrolls and ect if not for tis book....?? thanx to da vinci code.... there are so many many books and documentaries now about Jesus... about how the contents of the da vinci code differ from the truth.... i've learnt so much tat more about christianity.... i don think i will hav tis opportunity to do so... i don even think i would ever try to find out so much if not for tis book... i hav to thank it somehow...

so to those out there..... read the book or watch the movie wif an open mind.... do not be deceived by it.... let not ur faith be shaken!! it is afterall juz a fiction!! and enjoy e adventure!!

note: if i hav offended u here in anyway i'm sorrie.. tis is juz my personal opinion... no offence to anyone! :)

edited:
tat was one serious entry... nvm.. on a lighter note... i'm havin SPA tomolo!! not so light anyhow... haha... aniwae.. tomolo's half day!! yeah!! thanx to softball girls who got overall champion..!! congrats!!! e boys did a good job too...!! oh yes...! lemme complain complain complain!!!! I CANNOT GO SUPPORT JASLYN FOR HER SOCCER FINALS NEXT WEDNESDAY...!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm so pissed!! roar!!! WTH WTH WTH WTH!!!!! wat a best fren i am lah... I'M SORRIE JASLYN!!!!!!!!!! SORRIE SORRIE SORRIE SORRIE SORRIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEXT YEAR I DIE OSO COME SUPPORT U OKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nvm... tat's all for now.... can't wait for tomolo....

[LuLu~] days apart................

tired....

2006-05-15T21:57:00.000+08:00

harlow!!... let me first announce tat my skin is perfectly fine now..!! oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah...!! hehe... i'm so happie...!! i'm not lookin like a freak anymore...!! yeah yeah yeah....!!

i love my new wallet....!!!!!!!!! haha... and wat came wif it.... hehe... thank u darlin..!! haha.... so happie so happie so happie....!!!

okay... i'm juz super happie...!! nothin can spoil my mood now... mm.... maybe besides thinkin of u....??

wah... let me tell u tis... i ran 3.2km todae!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!! i actually ran...!! haha.. okay.. maybe i walked for like 0.4km... but i did in fact ran most of e time...!! hopefully no wobbly legs tomolo.... but i'm feelin a sense of achievement eh...!! hehe....

did i tell u how much i love u.....??? THIS MUCH!

anyway... i'm feelin really optimistic tat i do not feel like bloggin bout some shitty stuffs tat's been goin on... bleah.... shall throw them aside for now... maybe i'll complain some other dae....??

oh yah... todae durin GP... dear mrs liew was tokin bout sociable vs solitude.... and let me tell u tis... i love solitude...!! yes...!!! i'm a loner...!! i'm a loser...!! but i love solitude...!! haha... nvm... tat was random.....

[LuLu~] tuck u away in my wallet....??

cookie monster!

2006-05-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

wahaha... i'm finally gettin betta wif those disgustin rashes...!!! yeah... i'm now close to lookin normal again!! :) but they're still itchin like nobody's business!!...

ohohoh... e cookie monster shirt is super cute..!! :) hehe...

haha... peifang told me tat she saw me went past her at e causeway... haha... talkin bout coincidence!!!! anyway... i ate so much these few days...!! time to lose weight LuLu~!!! there's 5 items tomolo... hopefully i'll get gold tis year again..!!

movies i watched/wanna watch tis month:
1. Mission: Impossible III
2. Jasmine Women
3. The Wild
4. Where the Truth Lies (it's R21!! i can't watch...!! ROAR!!)
5. The Da Vinci Code
6. X-Men: The Last Stand
7. Over The Hedge

wah..!! tat'll cost me 7x$7.00=$49!!!!!!!!!!!!! wahlao..!! and i don think i'll be watchin all of them on weekdays...!! okay.. maybe movie no.4 is like out of e question.. but... still... $42!!!!!!!!!!! ROAR!!!!!!!!! wish i'm a rich kid... bleah... nvm...

did i tell u how much i miss u?? haha... i miss u!!! nvm... i'm gettin irritatin....

i crave for:
1. cheesecake!
2. nachos wif extra extra extra extra cheese!!!
3. egg tarts!
4. ice cream!!!!!
5. pizza!
6. pasta!!!!!
7. hash brown!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
8. mashed potato...!!
9. you you you you you you you you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i should stop thinkin bout food!! roar...

nvm.. tis blog's gettin borin.. i'm sure u all don plan on readin further.. so i'll juz stop here.. :)

[LuLu~] to love and be loved in return..... :)

itch itch itch!!!

2006-05-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

ROAR!!! i feel like slappin and wackin someone now!!!!! my arm and neck is itchy like mad now lah... stupid rashes..!!!!! look like i hav some terminal skin disease...!! and went to e clinic in e mornin... all e people there shun me like i'm a walkin-disease-spreadin-zombie or somethin lor..!! WTH!!!! i'm feelin super ultra ostracised lor...!! onli got a nice auntie came to tok to me and told me not to scratch my horrible lookin arms... bleah...! i'm super irritated wif e rashes now... no more bloggin for now... bleah..!!

[LuLu~] i love u....

whee!!!

2006-05-06T09:09:00.000+08:00

oh oh oh!!! yesterday was a superb day man...!! haha... i'm so satisfied..!! :)

OMG OMG OMG!!! i passed my 2.4run!!! and e timin's REAL good too...!! haha... to me at least...!! i'm like 39th in position lah... hehe... so proud of myself.... haha... but now my legs are wobbly... and to think tat i'm goin m'sia later?? hehe... nvm... den since VJ's a pollin centre.. we were bein chased out of school at 11...! yeah... den i took armenian dances conductor score and went home...!! haha.. wanted to study e score one.. but ended up nappin on e sofa till dono wat time... hehe.... i'm such a pig lah... :) den darlin came pick me up to go tanglin mall....!!! wah... it's like a place wif toys toys toys... hehe... wanted to buy present for benny sid and conran one... but think they'll kill me or somethin if i'd gotten them toys... :) haha... but they're like super cute and some are really fun..!! anyway... after tat went downtown east to eat chicken rice wif his frens.. haha... i'm such a pig...! ate so much!!! hehe... after chicken rice was cheesecake at east coast!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!! cheesecake was heavenly!!!! haha... i love blueberry cheesecake!!!!!! yummy yummy!!! hehe... i think i'll need more 2.4km run to burn off all those fats.... bleah... but e cheesecake's really really very super duper ultra nice...!!!! :)

oh yes... at pasir ris i saw all these NS boys bookin out... so many green figures roamin around e MRT station... parents and gerfrens everywhere lah... glad i don hav to go through all these waitin for loved ones to book out.... jasmine hang on there!!! :) u've still got me...!! i can be ur les partner anytime...!! haha... i miss u all so so much lah...

i think i'm like always wastin money...!! argh... been takin taxi to school every friday without fail.. haha... coz had to be in school at 7.15 to prepare for assembly wif e band... roar!!! den always cannot wake up early enough to take bus to school!! i'm a lazy bum..!!! wastin money all e time... haiz...

i wan go get a nice tan and swim!!! argh!!! but it's rainin again.. bleah... where's e sun?! nvm... shall study armenian dances now!!! i can do it.... haha...

i think my PW group is actually turnin out to be juz fine... :) i'm glad... and hopefully my dear mr kwek would like e idea... :)

todae's gonna be a fun and excitin day.....! i hope... haha....

[LuLu~] feelin ur touch......
i'm sorrie to make u feel bad... it's not ur fault at all... i don blame u at all... i onli blame myself for not bein good enough... not good enough to let u stop feelin for her.... not good enough to let u love me whole heartedly... not good enough to let u feel onli for me.... i don wan u to prove me anythin... like i've said... coz it really doesn't matter... i can't force u to stop feelin for her... and tat's a fact... but i'll still love u all e same... i don wanna lose u.........

feel like dyin!!!

2006-05-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

okay okay... todae's such excitin day...!! haha... despite e fact tat i'm still havin bad headaches tat doesn't wanna go away after 3 panadol extra... i feel great!! haha... wat a big fat liar i am... bleah...

ECONS LECTURE IS FUN AND EXCITIN AND INTERESTIN!!!! yes.. u got me rite.. haha... i think tat how interestin a lecture is really depends on e lecturer man..!! haha... he's super funny... said alot of 'sounds wrong' stuff... particularly e one bout e 'havin a free ride of my banana'... somethin liddat.. can't rmb.. haha... but it was hilarious lah... imagine a lecturer sayin tat early in e mornin...!! haha... today's weird... after e 'banana' thing... there's tis 'monkey' thing durin chem lecture... haha.. wat's wrong wif e lecturers todae..??!!!! all about monkey and banana... haha... so todae's not a so super borin day after all....

hehe... celebrated tsunami's b'dae durin e 3 period break... we had pizza delivered to school!!! haha... very funny.. coz park told them to cut them into really thin pieces... and they really did!!! it's like e pizza is divided into like 15 slices lah.. haha... okay.. i exaggerated... still.. pizza is sinful! argh..!! i muz not grow fat anymore!!! hehe... den they dunked him into e super ultra disgustin algae infested fountain...!! haha... poor boy... look at his algae manifasted pants.. haha... sorrie tsunami!! happie birthday..!!

oh yes.. had my very first squash trainin!! i almost died..!! yes..!! so don believe others when they say tat squash trainin is very slack...!!! it's not at all lah.. haha... cycled for like 15 min?? haha.. den did super tirin shuttle run back and forth in e squash court... ah...!! i've got wobbly legs.. haha... and my bum hurts from sittin on e cyclin thing... :p

tomolo's 2.4km run...!! and LuLu~ will fail it 100% man..!! oh no oh no oh no...!! please give me strengh and stamina!!!!!! and tomolo's a waste of time goin to school.. since there's onli GP and PE tat will take place... roar!!! if not for e 2.4km run tat i'll obviously fail... i wouldn't even think of goin school lah... bleah..

oh yes...!! i desperately need money!!! haha... so anyone wif a good pay part-time job lobang please inform me!!!!!! haha... or if u've got too much too much spare cash and wish to do some good deed... please gimme gimme gimme all ur money...!! haha....

i miss u i love u i miss u i love u...!!

i miss sq0205!!!!!!! i wan squad chalet..!!!!

i need a booze...!! i need lots of alcohol!!! roar!!!

[LuLu~] i need a break from everythin except u....

Argh!!!

2006-05-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed..!! hav all these little super ultra itchy bumps all over my body now...! and they're really friggin itchy!! and i hav no privacy!! NO PRIVACY!!! they juz come into my room and look at me bloggin lah... WTH!!! nvm... i'm itchin all over now... think i'm goin to scratch myself till my skin rot or somethin.. haiz... currently.. i hav 7 bumps on my rite arm... 5 bumps on my left arm... 2 on my neck.. 1 under my chin... and many more on body parts i wish not to be mentioned... bleah...

i wan e adidas jacket!!!!!!! it's super nice super nice super nice super nice...!! okay.. tat shall my on e top of my wishlist... hehe... and i desperately need new specs.. e one i'm wearin now is literally fallin apart... money money money... please drop from e sky!!!!!!! haha... nvm...

i'm now countin down to school holidays.... hehe... it'll be super fun...!! since already had so much plans made.... hehe... can't wait can't wait.... but on e other hand... tat means somethin else too... haiz...

i think i need a air refreshener for my room... forever got tis cigratte smell thanx to my dad comin into my room while smokin... i'm goin to die early because of second hand smoke...!!!! roar...!!!

[LuLu~] to love and be loved in return...
~~my heart bleeds...~~

I'm back!!

2006-05-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

hello!! i'm finally back from Batam!! haha.. although it's onli 2 days 1 nite.. but seemed like forever.. probably i missed u so much... :) anywae... here's e few pics i took there...

Batam trip!!

actually e trip was pretty fun... and i've learnt quite abit...

makin music is not about how well u can sing or play e instrument... it's not about how good all ur techniques are... it's about how u can touch others through ur music... a great musician is someone who can touch others wif their music... someone who can express their feelings in e music that they make.... leadin worship or singin in a church choir is not about how good u sound... it is whether u can lead and bring e church to God... i was overwhelmed when i tried singin from deep within my heart to God... it was not tryin to perfect every note i sang... it was tryin to worship God through my song... and to express my love to my Lord.... singin in a church choir is different from when u sing durin worship... e church listens to ur voices... and through ur voices... u bring them to God... it is a powerful thing... i dono how to discribe it... i'm overwhelmed...

oh yes... to those pple who wants to drink... if others tell u tat u are drunk... trust us... YOU ARE INDEED VERY DRUNK... haha... i shall not mention e incidents tat happened in e resort... seemed like i'm bein more and more like an alcoholic... haha... me and sally wanted to hav a great time drinkin de... but end up hav to take care of our dear 'die-oso-don-wan-admit-they're-drunk' drunk frens... haha... super funny... nvm...

i think insects tat kisses pple loves me!!! now i hav like a million insect bites all over me lah...!! my skin's goin to rot anytime!!!

think e trip bonded e youth choir alot... haha... our musicians are like super funny... it was very fun 'playin' wif them in e bedroom...!! haha... nvm....

gotta go back to school tomolo! arz..! oh yes.. there's SC investiture tomolo... :) congrats to terrence PK and wufan!!

think i'm goin to be sick soon...

[LuLu~] do u love me..?
i can't help but think about u... but it hurts to noe tat u still hav feelings for her... although i've said tat i don mind... but it still will hurt no matter wat... i'm scared tat one day she'll wan u back... i'm even more afraid tat u'll be tempted to go back to her.... i wish u would love me more than i love u... or at least love me as much as i love u... i wish i mean much more to u... i'm forever worried bout ur safety... always wonderin if u're safe... sometimes u can be so cold... i do need ur attention... i hope tis love i've given to u will not be in vain... i've never loved a person tis much before... so please make up ur decision before i fall more and more in love wif u...

..........

2006-04-30T08:35:00.000+08:00

i'm still feelin insecured... not becoz of wat he said.. but becoz of how much i'm afraid of havin to lose u... i'm afraid tat one day u cant tolerate me..... i'm juz not sure of how u feel towards me... i feel like u're holdin back... i'm afraid tat u don love me as much as how u loved her... u're much more expericenced than i am... i'm afraid i cant match up wif u... i'm afraid tat i can't meet ur expectations of me.....

i hav my fears... i hav my doubts...

i wish i knew u better... i wish i knew how u really feels... i wish to be a better person becoz of u... i wish i'm worthy.... i wish i hav more to offer... i wish u're happie... i wish to give u happiness... i wish i'm e one... i wish not to disappoint u... i wish not to be compared... i wish to hav ur 100%____... i wish u're true...........[LuLu~] am i doin e rite thing.......?

batam...!!

2006-04-29T21:02:00.000+08:00

i'm goin batam tomolo!!! haha...!! stay over for a nite... :) but i'm gonna miss u.... and i think i hav no time to finish my PW and my assignments... haiz... i need more public holidays.....!!

sorrie kailee bout e PE crap yesterday...

EXCO is serious... it's gettin more and more real....!! and i'm freakin out... Lord please guide me along and watch over me to overcome all e obstacles ahead.... i pray tat i'm up for it....

tis is a super random blog....

think i've seriously mistaken u.... i'm sorrie...

i've loved u
and i still do
but there's no turnin back now
things are not e same anymore
we've both moved on to our separate ways
i wish u'd find ur true happiness
one tat i couldnt give to u
u've taken a part of me when u left
u'll always hav a place in my heart
i don blame u for wat had happened
and i don hate u for wat u've done to me
i wish to move on
and i hope u'll do e same
i wish to hav ur blessings
i wish to be able to face u again
i wish u'd understand
i wish u happiness....................

it's been almost a month..................

havin mixed feelings... but i noe i'm gonna hang on tight to wat i hav now... i'll treasure all tat i hav... but i'm still feelin insecured... i'd still wonder why me?? afraid tat my heart will be broken yet again....

[LuLu~] am i really e one......??

2006-04-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

feelin like i'm fallin apart... had a panic attack last nite at e most awkward moment... haiz... it's comin back again...!! argghhhhh!!!! gotta take better care of myself... mm... nvm... wish i'm healthier... don take good health for granted..!!

todae was a borin day...!! super duper ultra borin...!! rained in e mornin lor... wahlao... obviously i don hav umbrella one... den lucky got some super nice ex-dunman ger asked me if i wan share umbrella wif her... haha.. yeah..!! thank u thank u...!!! but think e umbrella is too small for 2 pple... half my body was drenched when i got into school still... haiz.. nvm... at least e other half of me is dry... haha.. but it was super duper ultra cold in e LT lah.. maybe bcoz i'm wet... mm... played cards in e tree house durin e 3 period break... thursday is a total waste of time lor... den physics prac juz sux.. bleah... came home super early to do my GP essay...!! i'm such a good ger... :) shall go swim later if e weather's good... but it'll be all by myself :( nvm....

tomolo's EXCO interview..!! oh no...

i muz train up for 2.4km run...!! cannot fail.... so from next week on i muz force myself to run after school...!!! haha... quite impossible.... :p

my printer's goin crazy... 1 moment can print den next moment got catridge error...!! i'm super techno idiot... haha... so shall juz leave it... :)

miss u so much... haiz... but wat can i do?.... haiz... whoever said distance makes e heart fonder is crap lor...!!!! distance only makes e heart ache!!!!!!!!!! haiz... nvm....

[LuLu~] wonder if u ever think about me.........

PI is finally over..!! :) wat a great day.!

2006-04-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

oh yeah... i'm so happie so so happie... :) finally handed in my PI... waved good-bye...! yes!!! hehe... but now means group work... oh.. did i mention wat a 'FANTASTIC' group i hav?? as wat my class would like to say... it's super 'IMBA'...!!!!! my group so happened to hav e two most conflictin pple in class... they're like sworn enemies.. oh no...!! it's like a time bomb... ready to explode anytime anywhere anyhow...!! bleah... nvm... dear mr kwek say we can survive through tis... he promised us we won't fail... lets juz wait and see how true tat is... :)

oh yeah... got back my chem lecture assessment...!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...!! i passed lah.. haha... wat a miracle...!! to think tat i did not touch chem at all!! haha.. nvm.. pple's goin to slap me soon... :)

park's still workin on his ASA logo.. haha.. super funny.. he like spent e whole econs tutorial sketchin lah.. hehe... and we're tryin so hard to get him to be a man and ask her for her number and go out wif her...!!! super funny... haha...

egg tarts are super nice... :) especially when it's nicely chilled from bengawang solo... :) hehe... went to parkway after physics tutorial... hehe... and i can't wait for tomolo...!! :)

oh yes... we had ensemb prac todae... i sucked.. :'( juz can't seem to play anything properly... it's not a trumpet day todae...!! and tat sux... coz we had to run through in e evenin infront of all e rest of e ensemb groups... haiz... think i sounded like crap...!! ah... and to think tat mr tan is goin to hear us tomolo!!! E HORROR!!!! nvm... pray hard tat it'll be a fantastic trumpet day tomolo... gimme a good luck kiss...!! :)

and i can't go for e tekong trip tomolo wif my dear classmates... since tomolo's band seemed to be very important... ah...!!! my EXCO interview's on friday...!!! freaks me out freaks me out freaks me out...!!

[LuLu~] lovin u... missin u........ thinkin of u......................

Good morning!!!!

2006-04-25T06:04:00.000+08:00

hello pple!! gd mornin..! yes.. u're lookin at e earliest blog i've ever ever written!!!! oh my goodness... it's onli 6am!! and tis is after me sendin dear mr kwek my newly written PI completed at 5.30am... tat means i woke up at 3am to redo e whole shit!!!!!!!!!! haha... was thinkin through my original PI e whole nite... tot it was crap somehow... so dragged myself out of my bed to do... haiz... i'm a BIG TIME MUGGER!!!!!!!!! mugger mugger mugger...!! shit... nvm... i'm so sorrie....

guess wat..!! kim was online at tis time too!! haha... doin PI.... but he's preparin for school now... i shall slack till 6.30... :)

i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u!!!!!!!!!!

[LuLu~] wish u're here.......

addicted to u~

2006-04-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

i'm really addicted to u... :)

busy busy busy...!! :)

2006-04-23T12:44:00.000+08:00

yeah...!! it's been a long long long long time since i've gotten enough sleep... hehe... and yes...! i juz woke up... haha... nvm... i'm still so darn busy...!! hav to finish my final PI by monday...!! oh no oh no oh no...!!

we're together for sure now... :) no doubts kiez...

i've got to hav my hair cut...!!!!! mm... most likely on tuesday... mm... oh.. and tuesday's e day to hand in ur PI pple!!!! jianming u betta start doin ur PI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh great... juz remembered tuesday got ensem prac...! arz... nvm... find another day...! i hate e weather now...!! rain and rain and rain and rain everyday lah...!! where e hell did all e water come from??!!!!!!! pissed... can't wait for holidays...! can't wait can't wait can't wait!!! hehe... but holidays means mid-year!! oh no oh no oh no..! okay... wat's wrong wif me todae...?!

yesterday was a somewhat good dae?? had VJ band in e mornin...! i actually arrived so super early...!! haha... den we played armenian dances.. NEW WORLD!!!!!!!!!(oh my goodness...!! my fav piece lah... though it sounded weird when we sight read)..... and other pieces... was fun... i love sight readin pieces...! den durin break we had a short quintet prac for amazin grace... think it sounds much betta now... thanx for e effort pple...! den me xiaocui jien jessie left at 11 to go sembawang... hehe... they went to dunman to take bus there... my superb nice dear shuyuan sent me there... haha... nvm... wah... i'm like super slack lah... didn't do much durin e exchange... hehe... played for SSW and SWO... den was really sight readin e SSW pieces lor.. hehe... :p muz not do tat next time... den i saw my dear sec1 juniors for e first time...! wah... feelin old... they're like so young and cute... haha... remind myself of me when i'm sec1...! horrible horrible horrible... freaks me out when i look at my sec1 photo... haha... nvm... mr ng didn't seem to be in a super good mood... but at least he's not pissed or anything... :) think everyone played well!!! was a fun exchange..!!

after tat went to pasir ris for congo's birthdae chalet... sorrie congo i didn't stay for long... not gonna elaborate on e chalet part... went pasir ris park... had a nice long time wif u... :)

think i'm e ultimate buffet for mosquito lah...!! currently i hav more than 10 love bites from them on my body...!! arz...!! can even kiss me when i'm bathin lor... WTH!!!!!

oh yes...!! sunlu sux... i don care...! u juz sux... okay??!!!!!! how can u ever asked me such a question?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or any girl such a question??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREAK!!!!! PERVERT!!!!!!!!!!!!! i could hav juz slapped ur face rite there and then!!!!!!!! #$%*%^@($&@^&(*@%^%&*()%^@%ajkhklajgiak@#%^&*&$(*^&%@%$!!!!!!

okie... i shall go bath and change...

[LuLu~] wish u're safe........

ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

okay.. think i'm havin super big PMS now... ROAR!!!!!!!!!! dono why... but i'm like super frustrated...!! i don hav time at all!!! no time no time no time....!!!!! i think i need 36 hours a day...!! and e stupid mosquito in my room has already kissed me 3 times..!! i'm itchin like mad lah...!! aaarrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

List of things on my mind tat needs to be done urgently!:
1. finish my PI
2. practise my trumpet
3. practise for VIP openhouse
4. do my tutorials!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. get jasmine's present!! (we're so sorrie!! but really no time no time!!)
6. play well for band prac on friday for e invited conductor
7. play really well for exchange on sat
8. buy my trumpet mouthpiece!!!!
9. clean up my super messed up table and shelf!!
10. get my hair cut!!
11. convince my mama bout u noe wat.....
12. convince my papa bout u noe wat...!
13. to fail my chemistry lecture assessment tomolo! ha!

wah... e list is never endin.. i shall not continue further.... haiz... i have no time management skill at all!!!

i'm so sorrie jien... hehe... but i'll let u noe when e time's rite... :)

mr kwek please like my PI pls pls pls pls pls........ please say e idea is good.... haiz... it's drivin me nuts... nvm...

oh yeah...! todae's a wonderful day... slept durin econs lecture...! i actually dreamt..!! oh my goodness lah.. haha... tat's e first time lei... ops... i should be muggin hard... mid-year is in 2 months time...!!! i need to get 1B 1C 2D to take a H3 subject... not tat i really wanna take but tat's my goal for now... anyway... band was okay todae... played a few pieces and quite relieved tat i still remember how to play those competition pieces.... phew.... after band prac we went to geylang to eat 'frog porridge'... hehe... super nice lor... juz tell urself tat it tastes like chicken..!! hehe... but good school girl like LuLu~ have to get home early as there is school tomolo!!! so sad... wish i could stay longer.... :) nvm... tat's about it for todae....

think JC is ruinin my life...!!!! i'm always so drained tat i juz can't seem to be bothered bout anything when i'm at home... pissin my mum off every single second... although it's not completely my fault...!! i need a break from everything...!! but tat seemed impossible... haiz... time is flyin pass now lah... whooossshhhhhh.... and now is near e end of april...!! oh my goodness...!! wat hav i been doin for e past 4 months...??!!!! damn... wastin my life away.... and i can't afford to screw up my A's... shit...

okay... JC's not so bad actually.. hehe.. thanx my great fantastic class and my great fantastic frens in VJ...!!

06S55 rock on!!!!

okay... todae's blog is like super random... sorrie...

oh yes... congrats to my dear jaslyn for winnin e soccer match...!! will go down to support u one day...!! tat is if i hav e time... :)

[LuLu~] can't wait for tomolo!! :)

Preliminary Ideas....... sux....

2006-04-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

ah....!!! juz typed a new PI and sent to my dear mr kwek... totally scraped e previous one... PW is a total waste of time lor... haiz... please please please please mr kwek say e idea is good...!!!! if not i think i'll really go crazy le!! no more ideas...!! my creativity is runnin DRY!!!!!

nvm... other than tat todae is pretty good eh... hehe... rehearsed quintet and sextet for VIP openhouse...!! think we're playin 3 pieces... allegro.. amazin grace.. rondeou.... haha.. don really noe e title... nvm... but all super nice i think... but pple..! we need to practise more...!! not much time left lei... hehe...

nothin much to blog bout todae... PI's drivin me mad.... haiz.... 06S55 rox...! :)

[LuLu~] wanna run away wif u...!!

2006-04-16T20:54:00.000+08:00

hello pple... i shall update bout my wonderful and busy weekend...!!

friday
wah... rhythm XX!!!!!! it's like been a super long time since i've ever hear my juniors.... all tat i could say is good job everyone...! e concert was fabulous...!!!!!!! hehe...

met up wif jyeh in e mornin to hav breakfast.. haha.. lazy goh was late for 15 min lor..!! and he told me not to be late lei..! den i bought subway and he got BK... but we both are too poor to afford drink.. haiz... haha.. after tat went to VCH... den wah... they told us lunch is provided...!! den it's like 30 min after my subway i'm eatin my charsiew rice lor.. haha.. okay.. i like ate onli e charsiew and dumped e rice.. hehe.. but mr goh finished his...!!! shockin..!!

all e soloist did a fantastic job.... i'm so sorrie pinrui tat i didn't get to listen to e full concerto... stupid VCH guy chased all e alunmi in e circle seats out lah.. den i had to run down to e backstage to hear e endin... but it was great!! chunbok's was WOW... haha... i was like almost sittin rite infront of him lah.. up close and personnal... haha..!! it was very impressive and i enjoyed every second of it...!! piano conerto was like e ultimate best ever..!! it was mesmerizin..!! e pianist played wif flare and attitude.. hehe.. 'sounds familiar??' aniwae... i applaude all e soloist for their fantastic job make e concert a big success...

alumni band rox!! i think we played really well considerin e limited practises.. and to think tat some of us hav not been playin for a pretty long time...!! i love 'hobbits'... and of course 'phantom of the opera'.... playin in alumni band makes me marvel at how much i really miss playin in dunman band wif my frens.... i feel so distant from them....

thanx to my VJCSB frens... especially benny gladys and whoever tat bought me e beautiful sunflower!!! hehe.. i'm so sorrie i can't remember who gave me wat... haha... and thanx to yufan zhibin and herhan!! oh oh...!! and thanx to my dear trumpet junior for tat nice bottle of stars.. hehe... jessie chen! where's mine??!!!! haha.. nvm... and thanx to all those who came for e concert to support..!!

saturday
went for SSW prac in e mornin... we tried playin fantasy variations... but andrew gave up in e end.. hehe... den it was 'Passion of Christ'!!!!!!!! oh my goodness...!!! so nice so nice so nice... haha... although there's much more practises needed.. but i still love it!!! hehe... but so sad lah... onli given 30 min to hav lunch... lucky shuyuan rode to some coffee shop and got us chicken rice!! yeah... hehe.. i don like e food in e CC... afternoon we played 'noah's ark'... wah.. first time i play it lor... super nice oso... hehe... yeah... can't wait to play it on sat for e exchange... oh... did i mention tat andrew is like super funny.. haha... i shall not further elaborate... and shuyuan sounds super ultra fantastically nice on e french horn!!!! haha... jealousy arouses........

at nite i finally got to go meet up wif jasmine jaslyn and isa lor... it's been so long...!!! but we oso didn't get to catch up for long... coz seemed like everyone gotta leave early... haiz... wish we could hang out longer.... :)

Best frens forever!!!

sunday(todae!!!)
a million billion zillion thanx to my dear shuyuan for givin me a ride to SWO... haha... or i would hav died on e train due to exhaustion... haha... i woke up onli at 7!! hehe... and reached on time at 8... but didn't get to eat breakfast... was starvin when we got back from marsiling...

e performance at marsilin is something i wish not to mention... haha... heard so much camera clickin away... haha... quite fun... :)

e free food wasn't very fantastic... so me and xiaocui decided to buy maggie mee and share.. so pathetic lor... den after tat had rehearsal... it seemed like forever.. hehe... nvm... we ended at 5 liddat in e end... den waited for e rain to stop till 6 plus... den nice shuyuan rode me to eat at some hongkong cafe wif nice food and sent me home!!! hehe.. sad didn't get to eat e cheesecake... nvm...

ah!!!!!!!!!!! i in e end didnt' do my PI draft.. haha... dear mr kwek please don kill me tomolo!!! hehe... nvm... it's goin to be a busy busy week ahead.. haiz... den won't hav time to go out le... can't wait for sat's exchange.. can see my nice and cute little dear juniors... haha... aniwae... i've decided to practise harder on my trumpet.. hehe.. am inspired... haha... hope i hav e time and energy though... nvm...

[LuLu~] let love overcome every obstacles we face...

and to certain pple out there... whether we are together in e end anot if not really ur business.. so please stop all these stupid things can...

wat a great day....

2006-04-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

wow... todae's yet another fantastic day for me...! hehe... feelin really excited and happie and ______ hehe.... nvm...

i didn't attend any lesson todae.. haha.. was doin e econs essay and fillin e EXCO form e whole time lor... haha... thanx jessie and shushan for e great appraisal..... den we had sports day....!!! jianming's like e highlight of e day man...! his horse costume is like WOW!!! super muscular lah... haha.... look at e pic man... it's like super cute... haha... but he didn't wear e wings lor..!!

wah... haha... so nice so nice... think sports day is rather okay... we played bridge lah.. oh no.. hehe.. i can onli say we're all purple and gay...!

after sports day e class decided to go suntec.. i went along lor...! haha... they ate at carl's junior... wah... i'm still amazed at e size of e burger everytime i go there.. hehe... i ate alot of free fries from diego and tsunami... hehe... thanx to e two of u!! hehe...

after tat i left and met up wif ___.. hehe... so fun lor... :) bought stuffs and ate e super nice puff at marina square!! hehe... den went to esplanade...! wah... and i watched my first ever live jazz band perform... they are japaness...! den e trumpeter super good lor... wat a wonderful nite... hehe.... and here's e pic of e band... a bit blur.. hehe... but they're like super good....

so all i can say is tat it's such a great day yet again... :)

[LuLu~]livin e life i like.... :)

edited: tis was written for yesterday.. haha... didn't publish somehow last nite... mm... gonna go for rhythm concert now..!! good luck everyone...!! e concert will be a blast! enjoy...

2006-04-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

econs essay!! ah... it's like rite in front of my face... okay.. beside my laptop... it's callin me to do it...!! oh no..!! i don wan i don wan!!! haiz... maybe i'll do half den tomolo durin lecture complete e rest.. hehe.. keep myself busy durin lectures.. hehe... realised tat it's super helpful listenin to mp3 durin lectures... time pass by super fast... haha... but i still noe wat's goin on durin e lecture one kiez... hehe..

park...!! don be depressed kiez... we're still behind u de... hehe...

tomolo's sports day..! but sadly we hav lesson till 12... den i've to play for some march... so muz be set up at bout 1... sports day officially starts at 2... haiz.. so late lah... den i think most likely will be dismissed at 5 plus to 6 plus lor... oh no... i wan go out i wan go out... watch movie watch movie!!!! haha... jianming's gonna be e 'pegasus'... i've gotten e wings for u my dear..!! haha.. u better wear it tomolo!!! can't imagine how he's goin to look like lor... in some 'horse' costume... haha... hilarious...

tomolo's e deadline for submission of e band's EXCO application... but until now i've still not decided whether to run for EXCO anot... dilema...! haiz...

so much goin on inside me now... i juz can't seem to contain it anymore..! maybe one day i'll juz explode and spill all tat's within me now.... haiz........... nvm...

we really can't turn back time now... guess i'm one of those pple who'll onli realise it's importance when it's gone... haiz... i miss u guys.........

[LuLu~] lonely... but at least i've got u.....

:)

2006-04-11T21:56:00.000+08:00

hello... it's been a fantastic dae yet again... :)

been thinkin alot about e close frens around me... hav so so much to say to u all... but i don't even noe where to start... i miss e days @ dhs... i miss bein wif jasmine, jaslyn and isa... :) we all gotta move on... but i'm hangin on tight to u pple..! haha.. u all cannot shake me off!!! got so much to tell u all... we muz meet up soon...! SOON!!!! hehe... best frens always kiez...

wah.. tat was so sentimental... anyway... i really miss them.... :)

think my walk wif God now is growin strong day by day... :) i don wanna be taken away from my God..!! He's given me strength to carry on... to lead tis life i'm havin... however tough obstacles i'm goin to come across... i'll trust them to Him... :) i love my Lord...!

tis e house banner tat my wonderful class made..! in e process... hehe... super nice rite...!

[LuLu~] goin sentimental......

muackz...

2006-04-10T20:55:00.000+08:00

i wanna kiss so many pple now...!! okay... nvm... juz read some blog... hehe... i love my best fren...!! haha... i wan kiss u sally...!!! hehe... ops.. nvm...

skipped GP todae wif kailee... she wasn't feelin well... and i didn't hav band in e evenin and i certainly do not feel like goin through comprehension skills for 3 periods... so decided to self-declare end of school early.. hehe.. please take care of urself peifang...! hope to see u tomolo...

had a wonderful dae todae... :) despite e fact tat my phone's still out of my reach...

thank u for bein so patient wif me...

2006-04-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

okay.. i'm feelin much better now... not so super pissed.. haha...

handphone is like so important tat it's become a part of me... now without my precious phone... a piece of me is missin...!! i'm incomplete..!!!!! oh no..!! haha...

my new bag..!! so super nice.. haha.. it's red..!! but now it's time to save up for my specs.... really abit cannot stand wearin contacts everyday... hehe... muz get a super nice spec.. hehe..

okie.. tat's all for todae... hope i'm gettin my phone back soon... if not i cannot msg u le... :( gd nite everyone..!

PISSED!

2006-04-09T10:01:00.000+08:00

i'm damn pissed..!! so wat if i went home late?! it's not even super ultra late lah...!! 12 plus onli lor... WTH!!!! pissed pissed pissed...! they kept treatin me like small little kid... i'm like DAMN old enough to do wat i wan!!!!!!!!!!!! and now my phone's taken away from me.... :( sux..!!! sux sux sux sux sux....! den how to msg pple and play mario durin lesson?!!! WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna run away from home... i wanna get out of tis sick life... would anyone take me in?? but i've got no money to support myself... so i hav to freakin stay in tis s*** for many more years till i get a job or somethin.... i wanna grow up FAST!!!!!!!!!!!!

heck lah... i'm so damn freakin pissed now... pissed pissed pissed...!! so juz stay away from me or i'll piss u off too...

2006-04-06T18:40:00.000+08:00

frustrated... my dad came into my room while smokin again!!!! i'm pissed.. my room is now filled wif e smell of cigarette....! ah!!!!

anyway... other than tat.... i'm pretty alrite wif my life now... still in my own 'little' dilema.... but it can't bring me down..!

so much had happened within e past few days...

e band pple got back from hawaii wif GOLD... i watched sunset for e first time in my life... it was breathtakin...! i was totally overwhelmed by it..!! makes me marvel even more at e works of God.... went to the new cathay cineplex for e first time... watched my first french movie... had my first ever bike ride... had a rat rammin rite into my feet for e first time... confessed one of my greatest sin to someone for e first time... ... ... .... ... .... ... ... ..... ..... ..... ... ... .... .... ... ... ......

my life's changed i guess... for e better i hope...

i'll always keep a piece of u in my heart... no matter wat had happened.. i'll never forget bout u... thank u for all e things u've done for me... for all e love u've given me... it's not e end of road for e both of us... we juz went on our own ways in search of happiness... hope u'll find ur happiness soon...

dilema....

2006-04-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

dilema... my new favourite word... coz tat's wat i'm feelin all e time now...

it sux when all ur frens noe bout ur screwed up love life... ah!!! why can't i be normal?!

todae our dear mr ho encouraged everyone to run for EXCO in our respective CCA... i wan to run.. but am too tired... am mentally and physically drained...

it's been a very short short while... i'm sure pple will hate me for doin tis... let time erase away others' memories... so tat i can start a new life... a better and happier one... both on e outside as well as e inside...

[LuLu~] i pray for eternal happiness.......

changed my template!

2006-04-03T15:01:00.000+08:00

yeah... got new template... so nice rite... but a bit green.. hehe... nvm...

sorrie to all those i pissed off todae... was in a bad mood... but i'll be alrite... :)

shouldn't let all these affect me...

i will do my best to put all these things behind me...

[LuLu~] i'll treasure tis newfound relationship wif u....

pure bliss

2006-04-02T11:28:00.000+08:00

i can't believe everythin tat had happened in e past week... seemed like a dream... a fairytale... i dono how to put it... but it's pure bliss.... :) God is really kind to me... i'll treasure tis kindness He's given to me wif my heart and my soul...

i thank my Lord for u...

edited:
my life's like a rollercoaster ride... all incredible things had happened to me... though not all are pleasant... wish things would now go on smoothly... wish my heart would neva be broken again... wish my life would change for e better... i thank u my Lord..!

i feel bad... doin such a thing to u... pls don hate me.....

:)

2006-04-01T08:44:00.000+08:00

life's so super unpredictable....!

it's true..!!

when the Lord closes the door...

he'll always leave a window open...

i'm fortunate...

to discover tat opened window...

right in front of me..

[ i'm blessed... ]

edited:
somehow my tagboard died... i'm not fixin it anywae.. too lazy... so anythin juz tell me straight in e face... :) cheers..!

2006-03-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

so is tat it for us?

i hav no regrets.

juz tat my heart still bleeds for u.

wish i could turn back time...

to start anew wif u...........

[my heart aches]

2006-03-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

there's no turnin back now... tat's all i hav to say...

~~love u too much to hate u...~~

2006-03-13T10:51:00.000+08:00

yeah....!! dae 1 of my school holiday...!! finally get some much needed sleep le... hehe... so tat means i juz woke up after zzz for about 11 hours... haha... wat a pig... nvm... shall go town and shop... maybe watch movie... but now like don hav a single nice movie de... so sad...

wan go swim de... but scared later e freaky uncle there again... so shall onli go when i hav company.. hehe.. sian... had gastric pain ytd... coz whole dae neva eat... den onli ate 3 nuggets durin swo... shuyuan u owe me a treat hor...!! haha...

swo was super packed yesterdae lah... had like super a lot of yck pple... den wah... all black.. den my bright green shirt so obvious de... shall wear black next sundae.. haha... aniwae... mr davis was there... as cute as always lah... haha... missed him alot somehow... nvm... den wah.. think yck improved alot alot... hehe... so sad lah.. when they left rite.. alot of e ex-dunman pple oso left.. den suddenly e room like so damn empty lor... no t-bone at all.. haha.. trumpet onli got shuyuan xiangxing and me... :( nvm... when goin home tat time... everyone's so fascinated wif shuyuan's new shiny red bike... tat genevis actually jumped on e bike and took pics... ~~retarded~~...

miss playin wif my batch of dhssb.... ah.... nvm... oh yah.. tis comin sat got alumni band... but disappointin sia.. by batch so few pple de... haiz.. nvm.. better than nothin.. den since it's at dunman.. shall go back see e band oso.. hehe... haven really gone back to visit them...

don feel like postin much le... shall go fix some breakfast...

[LuLu~] wat do i do?!

dilema..

2006-03-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

wat happens when u fall in love wif 2 pple.... but u can onli be attached to one...??

a fren once told me tat sometimes u cannot help but fall in love wif another guy despite havin a partner who loves u dearly...

such fiction now becomes reality....

life is so unpredictable all the time....

why did i choose to live my life e way it is now?

committin mistakes tat u'd regret for the rest of ur life..

wish i could turn back time...

to fall in love wif onli u....

2006-03-09T20:12:00.000+08:00

hello... todae's e second last day of school....!! one more day and it's holiday time...!! hehe.. yeah... Can't wait for school holiday to come lah... hehe... coz lawrence say he's bringin me to MOS on wed.. hehe.. yeah..

aniwae... bought a new mouse for e laptop from suntec's IT show thingy... coz e previous one is dyin.. hehe... nvm... wah.. saw e new model of X BOX... white colour one... so super der nice.. hehe... but i'm too poor to buy lah...

oh yah... at e IT show rite.. there's tis OSIM booth.. den got e 'rockin chair' thingy rite... wahlao.. got tis woman... she wore mini skirt lah.. den was tryin out tat thing... den oh my goodness...!! can practically see her bum lah... den all e perverse ah peck there standin behind her and lookin at her well-exposed ass... GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! spoils my appetite man...

haha... marina square is like so nice and big...!! flooded wif super nice shops... hehe.. will be goin there to shop often i suppose.. hehe...

oh no... juz remembered got america idol.. hehe.. shall go watch now.. bye bye pple... hav fun...!!

[LuLu~] can i love u??

p.s. pls start taggin onto my tagboard... i juz put it up... hehe..

2006-03-07T12:13:00.000+08:00

wah... haha... i'm bloggin again... hehe... shall update on my life now...
yesterday and today was orientation2... wonderin why i'm home so early?? hehe... obviously e slack lulu~ pon rite.. hehe... went for mass dance in e mornin and met new classmates... hehe... think e class alot more fun than last time... hehe... i love mr kwek more and more each dae...!! he so super cute one.. haha...
aniway... life's been pretty good despite wateva had happened last month... hehe...
can't seem to think of much to say... so tat's all pple.... hav a great dae....!!
p.s. juz to say tat GMPS rocks.. haha.. like half of my primary school classmates are in vjc lah... hehe... so interesting...!! i miss _______.........

haiz...

2006-01-25T09:51:00.000+08:00

hello... find e time weird for a blog to pop up?? nvm... don bother bout tat...
sianz... sianz sianz sianz... hehe...
it's like wat's wrong wif me lah... i cant stand alot of things now... my life's in a mess... a big huge gigantic mess.....!!! it's all too late to turn back now... i gotta take on e responsibility for my stupid doins... haiz... a million regrets but no salvation could be done now.... ah.....!!! wateva...
maybe i really take too much things for granted??
haiz...
why..
..............

2006-01-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

hello... finally bloggin again.. hehe... still in e mist of moi orientation... so tiring lah.. hehe... yeah... i'm now in vj.... hopefully it's permanent... hehe... and in class 06S55!!! hehe... goin to meet new classmates tomolo.. hehe... kailee and peifang are my classmates..!! so happie... hehe... tat's for now den... hehe... i'll blog some other time den... happie new year everyone..!!

I AM LULU!!!!!

2005-11-13T11:44:00.000+08:00

Boo... hehe... so i am lulu... tis moi first entry here... wah... diaryland one died.. den now at mac... using lawrence's laptop... hehe... sian... studyin for o level... one more week to go...!! finally it's gonna be over really really really soon...!! yeah...!! so happie happie happie... hehe... well... tat's all for now.. gotta go back to my muggin... haiz... God bless me and everyone.... hehe... byebye.

[5 days till end of o level..!!]
[LuLu loves herself...]