More than words...!! I love tis song!!!

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

22june... bestest day i've had...

OooOOoooOOoooo.... finally i'm back bloggin.. haha.... firstly... i muz thank all of those who wished me happie birthdae in one way or another... :) and oso those who forgot all about tat sacred day i still muz thank u all for bein part of my 19-years life... haha... i love my frens and darlin!!

22june thursday....
tat was really e bestest day i've had for a long long long long............ time... haha... really.... but e biggest regret was tat i did not take a single photo!!!!!!!! argh.... slap myself slap myself... argh.... nvm... had lunch cum shoppin time wif my dear jasmine jaslyn and isabella...!! fantastic four?? haha... ate at billy bombers... wahh... i pigged out lor... haha... nvm... fats are my best frens now... they don wanna leave me... den shoppin shoppin shoppin... and i've decided tat i'll go shop NO MATTER WAT once mid-yr is over... :) and oh yes... thanx to u fantastic gurls for e cookie monster...!! haha... it'll stay wif me on my bed every nite... haha...

den in e me darlin samuel sally had wonderful fantastic sinful dinner at brewerts... haha... beer..!! though i didn't drink much... and samuel was semi-drunk... admit sam!! hehe... but i like it there... too bad darlin had to leave early to work... at nite.. poor thing... nvm...

anyway... so i've spent tis birthdae wif e pple i love e most most... :) and of course my parents lah.. haha... and i'm glad tat i hav these pple wif me... :) tat's more than enough... :)

after my birthdae...
i had band prac at ssw for 2 consecutive days already... haha... it's quite fun there... :) crazy bunch of pple... haha... 15july is e competition... tat's really soon...!! ah..!! seems like i'll be missin alot of VJ band... haha... competition more important... haha....

mid-yr is somethin tat LuLu~ had long forsaken... haha... think i'll be droppin one subject to H1.. hehe... probably econs... haha... anyway... i have more important things on my mind rite now to bother bout tis f****** mid-yr tat e whole world is so tense bout...

i shld go sleep soon... so fast tomolo e last day of e june hol le... haiz... no more stay-over... no more alcohol(i think).... argh...

okay... gd nite everyone..!! shall blog more tomolo.. i think... :)

[LuLu~] treasure e pple u love....

happie birthdae to me!!!

happie birthdae to me

happie birthdae to me

happie birthdae to LuLu~

happie birthdae to me...!!!!

okay... tat was rubbish... haha... why am i still bloggin...?? i hav no life... wahaha...

19 years ago... a tiny super underweight baby LuLu~ was born... wahaha... her parents named her as 'dew'... as they tot she looked so pure... juz like e mornin dew... 19 years hav passed... and she's now almost all grown up... had her heart broken... had cried a river... had done things that she'll regret forever... had so many frens who juz drifted away... had hurt herself on purpose... had hurt others on purpose... had experienced so much that she could no longer be e same ever again... but tat's wat made her to be wat she is now... after 19 years...

how time flies... hmm... wonder wat i'll be like in another 19 years time...

and darlin... here's my birthdae wish... tat u'll not sell elmo away...

[LuLu~] happie birthdae to me.....

i'm a cookie monster!!! hehe...

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth. You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around. You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

1 more day!

1 more day 1 more day 1 more day to wat?! to those whom i seemed so insignificant to... here's a reminder... tomolo's LuLu~'s birthdae... but i don seem to be tat excited... perhaps age got e better of me...?! hmm... wahaha... nvm... but i'm sure tis will be e best birthdae i hav... since i'll be spendin it wif e pple i love e most.... :) i sure hope tomolo will turn out great... so far i've gotten US$100 from my godmama... and pretty wallet plus wat's inside from darlin for my birthdae... but pls do not gimme any present... DO NOT GIVE ANY PRESENT!! i mean it...

juz got back from dunman... listened to e sec1s and i hav nothin to say... attitude... wahaha... and i played wif e main band for a while... played Mission Impossible... Do Enka Express(wif sunlu as e soloist... faints... again... i'll never forgive him for wat he did to me..!!)... thunder and lightning... and finally MERCURY!!! wahaha... was fun... but think they hav much to work... miss playin in DHSSB... i miss my squad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha....

next week's mid year... and congrats to LuLu~ she's gonna fail... wahaha... i think i really can't be bothered liao... hmm... darlin pls don scold me... :)

i'm sorrie i was so pms on sundae... i'm sorrie i was so paranoid bout her... i'm sorrie to make u feel bad when u didn't do anythin wrong... i'm sorrie... i don wan u to change anythin... i don wan u to behave differently juz becoz of wat i said... i shld hav more faith... i shld trust more... ...

[LuLu~] we've got a long way to go....

quiz.. i'm bored..

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

Your Birthdate: June 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated. You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way. People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little. Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know. Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid Your power color: Silver Your power symbol: Square Your power month: April

i'm finally bloggin...

alrite... i'm finally bloggin again... been super busy...? hmm...

18june sunday
it didn't start off great... but now come to think of it... why am i behavin liddat?! haiz... sorrie samuel and jingming.... choir sang at youth hour... but look at them... i got nothin to say... after tat met darlin and we went PS to shop...!! hehe... somethin happened and i had to buy IT... haha... so happie so happie... darlin u like IT hor?! haha... nvm... den walk walk around for a while... wah.. darlin played e new x-box game... super nice lor... i wan i wan i wan...!! haha... NO.. cannot... nvm.... den we went carrefour to buy super duper ultra yummy food for e chalet's bbq... it was money well spent... coz e food tastes really good... haha... took cab to e chalet... coz darlin wan to drink...!! so no ridin for him.. haha...

SWO/SSW chalet was fun... jocelyn and LuLu~ taught gladys and vanessa how to play bridge... think she almost exploded tryin to explain.. haha.. super funny... nvm... i need my bridge sessions wif my classmates @ e tree house soon.. haha... den finally bbq started...!! whoohhooo..!! i ate alot alot alot alot lah... super pig lor.. haha.. den mr ng and andrew came wif loads of alcohol!!! haha... i drank and drank... hehe.... super funny... thomas was drunk!! haha... den we kept makin fun of him... haha... he's super funny... had gossip session in e room... haha... can't stand it lor.. i'm so aunty... so gossipy.. haha... is there such a word...? hmm... haha... nvm... overall... chalet was fun.... in e end i didn't stay over... went home wif darlin... too bad he wasn't drunk.. haha...

17june saturday
concert day...!! all e photos i put up already... click here..!!!!

mahler was quite well played... although i did not contribute much... haha... was super tired after e whole concert lah... i aspire to play e french horn... haha... nvm... after concert went back cc to unload all e stuffs... hehe... bus ride back was fun... :) den we went AMK to hav supper... wahaha... went to mac at first... den got like thousands of pple watchin soccer there lor... haha.. den went to some coffee shop... nice yummy food... :)

tis concert meant alot to me... but i hav my regrets and heartaches.... it's all over... no one can turn back time to make it better for me... irregardless... i'll keep these memories wif me... :)

20june tuesday
i must study todae... mid year's next week... but i'm prepared to fail anyway... argh.. nvm... i don feel like studyin at all...

suddenly i've got so much to tell u...

i treasure my frens... but do they?

don feel like celebratin my birthdae at all... it's juz another day of my life....

[LuLu~] and i love u so....

my life is great...!!! not....

my life is great... i hav food to eat everydae.. i hav clothes to wear all e time... almost all the time... i hav frens around me... though i'm juz so insignificant to them... i hav parents who provides for my material needs... but nothin more than tat i think... i hav a cute darlin who's good to me... but unsecured me... i am in a good school... wonder how i got here in the first place... i am decent lookin.... despite e pimple out-breaks and e ffffffat and uuuugly me.... ........ ....... ........ ........... ..............

but why am i feelin tis way all the time?!

[LuLu~] be optimistic.........

i think tat life shld be much more than juz scorin well for exams and doin well in ur studies.....

why do i feel depressed all e time...?

[LuLu~] useless me.....

i don like e me now... i'm gettin mean... i'm gettin from bad to worse... haiz... nvm... feelin ffffffffffffat and uuuuuuuuuuuuuuugly now....

it's really hard to hold on tight to u pple anymore... i tried hard... but i'm really tired... tired of tryin to hold on to all of u anymore... like i've said... insignificant me... no one will ever take me seriously... treat me like i meant somethin to u... haiz... i am feelin so distant from u all... why is it tat whenever i put my heart and soul into somethin... it juz comes back breakin my heart... disappointin me...

i wonder wat if i was never there... wat if..........

so much goin on in my mind rite now...

i ought to be studyin...

i'm sleepin on e floor tonite.. haiz...

[LuLu~] depression..............

edited:

juz great... look at my wishlist... onli one item is finally mine... great...!! juz great!!! and to think tat i could buy them while everywhere's on sale now.. haiz...

please do NOT buy me anythin for my birthdae...

and mid-years in less than 2 weeks time... wat hav i done so far..?? NOTHING!!!!!!! haiz.. useless stupid lazy me....

the higher the expectation the greater the disappointment.... how true...

go sleep now... still got band tomolo morning....

[LuLu~] do i mean anythin....?

sometimes i wonder if u ever think of me...

tis e second week of hol... and i've not touched anythin academic related... wahaha... i'm so dead... and parts of my lecture notes are still empty... hmm... so some of u will get my call soon to borrow notes to copy... haha... i'm so sorrie...

i juz wanna please u....

feelin super duper ultra ffffffffffffffffat... gonna look like s*** tomolo on sally sis's weddin.... bleah... no more eat-like-a-pig diet for me..!!!

sometimes i wonder if u're for real....

oh yes... we cleaned e band room todae... u juz can't imagine e amount of rubbish we threw out... and e amount of dust flyin everywhere... haha... it was fun... but dirty...

i juz wanna love u...

i'm tired... shall go sleep soon... got band prac and weddin to attend tomolo...

[LuLu~] am i good enough??

ATTENTION!

everyone needs attention... i'm no exception... all i needed was juz tat little attention tat i deserve... am i askin too much...? i do need to feel cared for and loved once in a while... but why is it tat i'm always feelin insignificant...?! feelin like a nobody... haiz.. it seems that i'm not important at all... i dont mean anythin...

anyway... last weekend was great...

[LuLu~] love me?

edited:
now's 11.09pm... i'm feelin really pissed... mixed feelings...

i need affection... i need freedom... i need love... i need care and concern... i need attention... i need confirmation...

why is it tat when i gave my all... i got back nothin... juz perfunctory acts...

[LuLu~] i'm such disappointment....

name issue.....

first of all... for those who noe me well... don bother readin tis.. haha... but for those who think tat u don really noe me very well.... LISTEN UP!!

LuLu~ is my nick... wat pple would choose to call me if they decided tat chenlu doesn't sound tat good.. haha... wateva lah... i like pple callin me LuLu~.... chenlu's fine as well... but please do not be deluded tat my surname is chen...!!! it is not....!!!!! do u realise tat chenlu is spelt together...?? did it ever occur to u how surname and given name can be written together?? hmm.... so let me solve e mystery.... my surname is Qian.... direct translation means money.. yes yes yes... $$$.... haha... so tis gives u Qian ChenLu.... my full name... haha.... so i'm not miss chen... i'm miss qian!! and lu does not means road...!!! chenlu stands for mornin dew...!! pure and beautiful...!! haha... juz like me.... hehe... :p

okay... tat's all for now... i shall go shoppin soon... :)

[LuLu~] one more day...!!